Day 432 Flash back
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Day 432 Flash back
Today I work on day 432
Had a few trigger this past weekend. My drug of choice prescription opiates. It first started with my father in law. He had came over to visit the family he wasn't aware of me being in recovery. But he handed me a hand full of medicine bottles and wanted me to look it over for him. Knowing my history I'm like a encyclopedia when it comes to prescriptions. Like superwoman my wife came immediately and pulled them from my hand. I felt the butterflies and flash backs. Took a few deep breaths and was okay. I had spoken to my wife afterwards and she immediately apologize for it happening. The following day I went to visit my grandma and the exact thing had happened. Took a step back and deep breath and remember recovery first. It was a reality check that there is always work to be done in recovery. I haven't had alcohol or any recreational drugs in 8 years etc. I started to get that AV whispering to can drink responsibly since it's been so long. But the truth is no I can't. Just wanted to check in. As I read others post I remember the pain and the loss of everything I loved . I needed to remind me how grateful I am for today day 432.
Had a few trigger this past weekend. My drug of choice prescription opiates. It first started with my father in law. He had came over to visit the family he wasn't aware of me being in recovery. But he handed me a hand full of medicine bottles and wanted me to look it over for him. Knowing my history I'm like a encyclopedia when it comes to prescriptions. Like superwoman my wife came immediately and pulled them from my hand. I felt the butterflies and flash backs. Took a few deep breaths and was okay. I had spoken to my wife afterwards and she immediately apologize for it happening. The following day I went to visit my grandma and the exact thing had happened. Took a step back and deep breath and remember recovery first. It was a reality check that there is always work to be done in recovery. I haven't had alcohol or any recreational drugs in 8 years etc. I started to get that AV whispering to can drink responsibly since it's been so long. But the truth is no I can't. Just wanted to check in. As I read others post I remember the pain and the loss of everything I loved . I needed to remind me how grateful I am for today day 432.
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Thank you all for the support. This was very much needed. I say this because if you are new to my story. I had stopped drinking alcohol and any other recreational drugs in 2012. But I continued to take my prescription opiates. In my head it was okay because it was a legal prescription. But after time you know the story more and more and more to just function. Then the downfall I couldn't function without them. I have to say thank you to the members here I made the biggest decision to tell my doctor. So here I am not perfect but I'm okay with that. Day 432 and yes i still feel pain in my body and it's a life time health condition that won't go away but recovery has given me the strength to keep going.
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