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491 days 🙌🙌🙌
Hey everyone,
it suddenly crossed my mind that I hadn't checked in for awhile, I'm still sober/clean and still not smoking. ( still a nutter though 😃
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Back story for those interested I spent 30 odd years on the constant merry go round of getting smashed, apologizing, feeling embarrassed, the creeping shame. You know the drill.
Never ever did I think I'd ever get here. But here I am loud and proud.
it gives me so much pleasure to say " no thanks i dont drink" or " no I don't have a lighter, I don't smoke " not feeling I have to explain myself to everyone. I once felt like I had to give a reason.
I'm not saying that life doesnt get tough, of course it does. But i deal with it, I don't run off to bury my head in the sand with a bottle of booze an a handful of tablets or whatever.
some days I have to remind myself of where I came from, and how far I've come, I can say I'm 99.9% sure of the fact, I'm never going back. It's good to revisit how messed up I was.
my mental health is now balanced on the whole, still have my ups and downs, but not as bad 😊.
I hope this may help someone, to give them hope that it can be done. One hour/day/week at a time. Be kind to yourself, don't beat yourself up if you fall, get up and start again.
much love as always
Doris xx🙏🙏
it suddenly crossed my mind that I hadn't checked in for awhile, I'm still sober/clean and still not smoking. ( still a nutter though 😃
.Back story for those interested I spent 30 odd years on the constant merry go round of getting smashed, apologizing, feeling embarrassed, the creeping shame. You know the drill.
Never ever did I think I'd ever get here. But here I am loud and proud.
it gives me so much pleasure to say " no thanks i dont drink" or " no I don't have a lighter, I don't smoke " not feeling I have to explain myself to everyone. I once felt like I had to give a reason.
I'm not saying that life doesnt get tough, of course it does. But i deal with it, I don't run off to bury my head in the sand with a bottle of booze an a handful of tablets or whatever.
some days I have to remind myself of where I came from, and how far I've come, I can say I'm 99.9% sure of the fact, I'm never going back. It's good to revisit how messed up I was.
my mental health is now balanced on the whole, still have my ups and downs, but not as bad 😊.
I hope this may help someone, to give them hope that it can be done. One hour/day/week at a time. Be kind to yourself, don't beat yourself up if you fall, get up and start again.
much love as always
Doris xx🙏🙏
I'm glad to read of your success. 
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Congrats!
After my long (decades) journey down the path of the "perfect" double-addiction of booze und cigs, I'm now 235 days sober and 5 WHOLE DAYS smoke free.
(finally figured out how to quit the cigs, motivated by the $ I've saved not drinking. Had a long, heartfelt, "break up" with them. Talked about how they USED to be so precious to me, how they were always there, through the good times and bad, but that our "relationship" had to end. Couldn't bring myself to put out the last one (on the porch, watching the rain and lightning) as I knew the same guy who put it out would be the same guy who bought some more.
So I let it die out in my fingers, and gently placed it in the trash.)
After my long (decades) journey down the path of the "perfect" double-addiction of booze und cigs, I'm now 235 days sober and 5 WHOLE DAYS smoke free.
(finally figured out how to quit the cigs, motivated by the $ I've saved not drinking. Had a long, heartfelt, "break up" with them. Talked about how they USED to be so precious to me, how they were always there, through the good times and bad, but that our "relationship" had to end. Couldn't bring myself to put out the last one (on the porch, watching the rain and lightning) as I knew the same guy who put it out would be the same guy who bought some more.
So I let it die out in my fingers, and gently placed it in the trash.)
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