Day one again
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Day one again
Hi everyone, after an extremely embarrassing week long binge I've realized I never should have stopped visiting this forum. I've had off and on success with staying sober over the last 3 years, every time I stopped I swore it was going to be permanent this time. This past week came after two months sober, I had a bad day with my PTSD and I foolishly turned to the old ways to fix it. This time was worse than before and I can't and won't have that happen again. I've already reached out to a counselor to start talking about some of the demons I've stored up over the years. I remember how much help SR was in the past and I'm glad to be back.
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hello Buck,
getting and staying connected has been hugely helpful to me, and it's great to see you being proactive in that direction.
those "old ways" don't fix things; they just add more things that need fixing.
there are other ways, and you can find yours.
getting and staying connected has been hugely helpful to me, and it's great to see you being proactive in that direction.
those "old ways" don't fix things; they just add more things that need fixing.
there are other ways, and you can find yours.
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Welcome back, Buck. I'm sorry you're struggling but reaching out for counselling is a positive step. I hope you find your PTSD can be helped and I'm glad you're ready to live a sober life.
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Hi Buck! I'm glad you're giving yourself the gift of another Day One. This really can be the last time. 
Every time I started up again after a period of sobriety it was worse than ever. Returning to sober living was harder too - & I knew I needed to make it a permanent thing or one day I might not make it back to life. Glad you're here.
Every time I started up again after a period of sobriety it was worse than ever. Returning to sober living was harder too - & I knew I needed to make it a permanent thing or one day I might not make it back to life. Glad you're here.
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Same thing happened to me last October. Fortunately I was able to stop after one day and now I know I have to be very self-aware during any medical setting.
I haven't had any trouble since; I was even able to go to the ER without freaking out. So pick yourself up, use this as a learning experience, and carry on.
I haven't had any trouble since; I was even able to go to the ER without freaking out. So pick yourself up, use this as a learning experience, and carry on.
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Glad you are back Buck. I've known some people that deal with PTSD and it's tough. I can understand your wanting to relieve the pain through drinking, but obviously it doesn't help in the long run. Dealing with the issues with good counseling is a much better way to go. Wishing you well. John
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Way to go Buck!
All seem far preferable to drinking. Even the anxiety attacks, which at least can be managed over time.
I could never manage my drinking no matter how hard I tried.
Good to know.
All seem far preferable to drinking. Even the anxiety attacks, which at least can be managed over time.
I could never manage my drinking no matter how hard I tried.
Good to know.
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Join Date: Jun 2020
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You've got this! Everyday will be better than the last. Even if the first few are rally tough. I'm back on day 1 myself. I keep yo-yo ing back and forth. I think I've finally realised i just can't drink, i just spiral. No matter how many lies i tell myself. Let's get thru this together.
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Glad you're back to SR, Buck. I got sober for over 3 years here when nothing else worked. Then I got complacent and threw it away in 2017. After that I struggled to get more than a few months at a time, so I finally realized I needed to get back here to quit for good this time. There's some magic here, if people just participate - reading and posting, and taking the advice of long term folks seriously. Some things have to change in the beginning to reduce triggers and temptation, but eventually a much better life is in the works.
I hope you continue the same and find success this time.
I hope you continue the same and find success this time.
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Day 2. I feel like garbage, but I expected that. The anxiety is starting to dull after a night of panic attacks, my wife works overnight so it was just me and the dog to deal with it until she got home. Thanks for posting everyone, reading on here kept me distracted through most of it.
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Originally Posted by Hevyn 
The garbage feeling will begin to fade. Congratulations for making it to Day 2 - we all know how hard it is in the early days, but the misery will end.
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