lifewithart

I have gone to the bottle and used for various reasons. Sometimes a feeling of inferiority or insecurity would trigger it, but just as much as any other one of my triggers. Alcohol was my only coping mechanism. I can tell you that in my time clean my coping mechanisms have gone up dramatically. The ability to feel inferior in some way and to smile at it and see the truth, is a blessing.

least

I didn't drink because I felt inferior, but drinking made me feel inferior. I hated myself and wished I were dead. Now that I've been sober for a number of years, I no longer feel "less than", rather, I feel like I'm occupying the space I'm supposed to be occupying. I'm fulfilling 'something' by being alive, if for no other reason than I'm enjoying my life, which I never did when I was drinking.

Surrendered19

It was so long ago, I can't remember if my brain was disordered so I drank or if I drank and then my brain became even more disordered. Early on in my 30 year drinking career, it ceased to matter because drinking and my disordered thoughts became hopelessly intertwined with each other. But I can say with assurance, when I was feeling a failure, or resentful, or pissed off, I drank and had 30 minutes of maniacal fake relief followed by an exacerbation of the bad feeling that led to my drinking. A vicious cycle of idiocy and insanity.

izzy1962

In my situation, I felt that when I was drinking, I was inferior to sober people. "Why cant I be normal like them"?

owen90

Thanks for the responses everyone. I do not know what I would do without you. Today is a better day

Haris2014

Never really thought about it like that, but I think I did feel inferior. any situation I was uncomfortable with I would try and turn into a drinking situation. always trying to drag people into a session, work events, family events, social gatherings etc... because I was good at drinking being drunk was my safe place.