11 Months 20 Days - Fighting for my life in a mental health battle
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11 Months 20 Days - Fighting for my life in a mental health battle
Hi everyone,
I am just writing this to remind myself that I did accomplish something this year: I stopped drinking. I want to be grateful for something.
In early January, I took my last drink. Little would I know that this will give me a fighting chance. I have been suffering from severe mental health issues as a result of poor medical treatment and just my underlying conditions. I have gone through the most horrific symptoms anyone can imagine. Any terror movie you have watched falls short.
I have spent most of the second half of the year in and out of psychiatric units. Until today without any success. I am having a horrible time. BUT there is absolutely no r way I could have battled this if I was drinking. I would have lost a long time ago.
Listen, I do not know if I will recover. I am dealing with crippling anxiety, depression, and OCD. All by myself. In a lockdown.
However, I want to be grateful because I am still alive and fighting. I lose perspective quite easily but I do have hope.
Now more than ever I understand and have sympathy for all of us who are struggling with addiction and/or mental health conditions. We are true warriors.
I want to wish everyone a happy new year. A big hug. You guys are not alone. Stay connected and keep trying.
Best,
Hope
I am just writing this to remind myself that I did accomplish something this year: I stopped drinking. I want to be grateful for something.
In early January, I took my last drink. Little would I know that this will give me a fighting chance. I have been suffering from severe mental health issues as a result of poor medical treatment and just my underlying conditions. I have gone through the most horrific symptoms anyone can imagine. Any terror movie you have watched falls short.
I have spent most of the second half of the year in and out of psychiatric units. Until today without any success. I am having a horrible time. BUT there is absolutely no r way I could have battled this if I was drinking. I would have lost a long time ago.
Listen, I do not know if I will recover. I am dealing with crippling anxiety, depression, and OCD. All by myself. In a lockdown.
However, I want to be grateful because I am still alive and fighting. I lose perspective quite easily but I do have hope.
Now more than ever I understand and have sympathy for all of us who are struggling with addiction and/or mental health conditions. We are true warriors.
I want to wish everyone a happy new year. A big hug. You guys are not alone. Stay connected and keep trying.
Best,
Hope
Hello, Hope! I'm sorry you're having such a tough time, but I'm glad you're here with us. Some days all we can do is get through. I know I have some psychological issues to work through, too. I can't say I'm looking forward to that work, but I will keep trying to better myself.
Happy New Year, my dear!
Happy New Year, my dear!
Stories like yours are an inspiration to me Hope. The resilience of humanity under immense pressure is amazing.
Not entirely sure if that makes any difference, but I wanted you to know that I’m really rooting for you
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Not entirely sure if that makes any difference, but I wanted you to know that I’m really rooting for you
D
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Hey buddy. You want a good laugh? I remember when you told me that I was an inspiration to you. My how the tables have turned. You really have become an inspiration to me and while I know you're hurting I still admire all that you have done. I still believe in you bro. See you in 2021!
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I'm sorry for what you've been going through, Hope.
Mental health is an often overlooked priority. Stigma. Mediocre insurance coverage. Difficulties in accessing services. And, because this is America, as long as you have a job, a nice car, and a place to live, and you don't make too much trouble, then all you need is a beer, a raise, or a kick in the ass.
I don't know whether or not you're getting adequate treatment or where you live; I know only what I read in your post. I believe that all fifty states have an office of mental health. Some cities have them too. There are also local organizations that may help.
Several hotlines have come into being since we became aware of the pandemic last winter, many of which are specifically geared to matters of mental health; referrals, counseling, or someone to talk to. Phone, texting, or, in some cases, FaceTime, Zoom and the like. You can even have therapy sessions using current technology.
Nonprofits also offer assistance:
https://www.nami.org/Home
https://www.verywellmind.com/leading...ations-4147842
https://www.choosingtherapy.com/top-...organizations/
Mental health is an often overlooked priority. Stigma. Mediocre insurance coverage. Difficulties in accessing services. And, because this is America, as long as you have a job, a nice car, and a place to live, and you don't make too much trouble, then all you need is a beer, a raise, or a kick in the ass.
I don't know whether or not you're getting adequate treatment or where you live; I know only what I read in your post. I believe that all fifty states have an office of mental health. Some cities have them too. There are also local organizations that may help.
Several hotlines have come into being since we became aware of the pandemic last winter, many of which are specifically geared to matters of mental health; referrals, counseling, or someone to talk to. Phone, texting, or, in some cases, FaceTime, Zoom and the like. You can even have therapy sessions using current technology.
Nonprofits also offer assistance:
https://www.nami.org/Home
https://www.verywellmind.com/leading...ations-4147842
https://www.choosingtherapy.com/top-...organizations/
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There is always hope, and your short story has topped up my levels so thank you very much. I also found your story inspirational, you've done so well to cope with all that has been thrown t you and to still be living soberly.
Ill send some hope back over to you, it's an Amazon delivery so check down behind your bin 😉
Ill send some hope back over to you, it's an Amazon delivery so check down behind your bin 😉
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