Rsanchez920

Crazy that today makes 29 days... time seems like it's going very fast. So yesterday and the day before I had my first twinge of a craving.. I've been having a good amount of anxiety over various things and my usual trigger came about wich basically is just having a great day riding around on my bicycle with the sun shining watching people out and about and happy and seeing people out on patios blah blah blah and then I'm thinking today is sooooo great what would make it even better is if I got high/drunk... Even today it came into my mind for a moment but this time around just having a thought is not going to push me over the edge. I have too much riding on it this time and want this sobriety sooo bad!! I am in the middle of starting a business , things are starting to really look up, and I'm studying for a huge test that will greatly affect my life... None of this I was able to accomplish and get off the ground while drinking.... As I've mentioned before usually when I have a craving I absolutely have to go through with its like every thought that I have usually turns into an action. Last time I had gotten 59 days and the whole time I didn't have cravings really but as soon as 59 days hit I had a craving and I went totally tunnel vision just because the mere thought of using was enough... it's crazy to me how strong it was and this time all I know is I don't dwell on the thought at all... I go down a huge list of how crappy its going to be and how not fun it's going to be and how much time and money is going to waste, how sick I'm going to be and I just run down the list of this in my head and go about my day....

I was listening to a lot of sober podcasts that were really helping me but I listen to them all already LOL so if anybody has any good recommendations for sober podcasts or books or anything of that nature please let me know I'm trying to just make sure that I'm consuming information and motivation about sobriety just to keep me focused and what not

Thank for reading!!

least

Congrats on 29 days sober! I have no podcast recommendations but wish you well in your sober journey.

Anna

Congratulations on 29 days of sobriety.

I have no podcast recommendations, but we have a great Book List, compiled by our members with something for everyone:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ependence.html (Books on Recovery, Spirituality & Codependence)

sortofhomecomin

Great. I am right behind you on Day 26.

Rsanchez920

I'm taking a look now!!

RecklessDrunk

I really liked this guy's story
https://youtu.be/NlvxXC1ANEc

Rsanchez920

Thanks!! Will be listening tonight

Resurgence

While recovery isn't the main focus, Russell Brand's Under The Skin has helped immeasurably during mine.

Congrats on your month sober, RSanchez!