Surrendered19

So typical to feel that way PK. I've noticed that part of the reason why emotions are such a roller coaster for people like us is because we never learned to right-size challenges, issues or problems that come our way. We couldn't think straight and so now when we get cut off in traffic, when we think of some mistake we made, something we said that didn't come out right - we make all of those things into WAY bigger problems than they actually are, and then it is off to the races with our emotions. Seeing clearly what is coming down the road, having the new ability to think for a minute before I light the flame thrower, has helped me so much in finding moderation in my emotions and letting them flow at their proper pace and time.

prettiekittie

When I was hospitalized back in 2012, I had to detox. My therapist and my case worker both told me that while I was a problem drinker, I might probably get that under control with enough therapy and intervention. I think they told me that because I was in my early 20s and hadn't been drinking for that long. I never did drink moderately though even when I would go long periods with nothing. It was always a binge.

prettiekittie

Thanks for all the replies, all. It's nice to know that my struggle has been witnessed and I feel waaaaay less alienated in all of it.ÂÂÂ I do have some pretty severe anxiety diagnoses and a trauma history and sometimes I just feel so broken and alone. I have access to a therapist which is a huge help but sometimes the prospect of lifelong maintenance is really daunting. Not just lifetime sobriety but lifetime management of all my other ********. Being sober really has helped in a lot of ways--at least I'm not constantly acting out anymore.ÂÂÂ