Day 59 feeling shaky
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Day 59 feeling shaky
Tomorrow’s 60 days but not the end of February yet!
on the one hand I know what a nightmare it’ll be waking up hungover after 2 months alcohol free. On the other I find myself watching drink associated YouTube videos and googling beer. I have the urge today and it being a Friday isn’t helping. I thought about HALT. I think it’s tiredness. I’ve been feeling very lethargic for the past 3-4 days. I’ve been eating too much sugar. Maybe that’s why.
need to go home and get in bed and just have an early night I guess!
thanks
on the one hand I know what a nightmare it’ll be waking up hungover after 2 months alcohol free. On the other I find myself watching drink associated YouTube videos and googling beer. I have the urge today and it being a Friday isn’t helping. I thought about HALT. I think it’s tiredness. I’ve been feeling very lethargic for the past 3-4 days. I’ve been eating too much sugar. Maybe that’s why.
need to go home and get in bed and just have an early night I guess!
thanks
Good of you to recognize you are in a delicate situation, with the drinking videos and looking up beer. Thinking about drinking is dangerous; don't let it lead to the real thing.
My brain and body are still healing from all of the booze I drank for decades.
I am 1000% better, but there is still healing.
I craved like a crackhead for the better part of 2 years.
I didn't get any medical treatment for my addiction problem. I use exercise, kindness, and sr for my therapy.
99% of the time I get great vibes from this place. When I am triggered here it is always because I say something that irritates.
At least I am sober.
I try to not give advice because I am always 1 slip away from day 1.
I prefer a science based view when it comes to addiction. Waiting for the miracle to happen and going to meetings are not for me for now.
It has been all about drug free clean time and ways to get the natural high for me.
I tell my story because it might help someone. It definitely helps me.
Thanks.
I am 1000% better, but there is still healing.
I craved like a crackhead for the better part of 2 years.
I didn't get any medical treatment for my addiction problem. I use exercise, kindness, and sr for my therapy.
99% of the time I get great vibes from this place. When I am triggered here it is always because I say something that irritates.
At least I am sober.
I try to not give advice because I am always 1 slip away from day 1.
I prefer a science based view when it comes to addiction. Waiting for the miracle to happen and going to meetings are not for me for now.
It has been all about drug free clean time and ways to get the natural high for me.
I tell my story because it might help someone. It definitely helps me.
Thanks.
Clark put on your superman suit and know you are vulnerable to kryptonite. I'm glad you got to the phone box and phoned us.
Clark you will be so disappointed (!!!) in yourself if you pick up. It will give you a moment of relief, then it's all downhill. You are caught in an obsessive crave which can be overcome. You are doing that now by going to bed with thoughts of a new tomorrow. TOMORROW! The best day sober.
I wouldn't be watching videos with alcohol themes. Tune instead to videos showing serious outcomes of alcohol abuse, physically, psychologically, socially.
It's a mental and physical nightmare Clark, please don't go there, you will truly regret it. You know you will.
Alcohol is (our) kryptonite Clark and will destroy us if we get too close.
Your friend Lois Lane. aka steely
Clark you will be so disappointed (!!!) in yourself if you pick up. It will give you a moment of relief, then it's all downhill. You are caught in an obsessive crave which can be overcome. You are doing that now by going to bed with thoughts of a new tomorrow. TOMORROW! The best day sober.
I wouldn't be watching videos with alcohol themes. Tune instead to videos showing serious outcomes of alcohol abuse, physically, psychologically, socially.
It's a mental and physical nightmare Clark, please don't go there, you will truly regret it. You know you will.
Alcohol is (our) kryptonite Clark and will destroy us if we get too close.
Your friend Lois Lane. aka steely
Fly over the Daily Planet building. There's a newsstand outside which reads: "Superman avoids Kryptonite by taking a long walk." "Recognises his humanness."
It is hard Clark, but if you just get through this one night you will be so glad. With each successful rejection of the stuff it starts to become more natural, manageable, desirable, even. This is the good bit.
Superman has sober muscles.
It is hard Clark, but if you just get through this one night you will be so glad. With each successful rejection of the stuff it starts to become more natural, manageable, desirable, even. This is the good bit.
Superman has sober muscles.
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Hey Clark,
That's pretty cool you're reading your body, cause/effect of things that you put into it. Being able to read your body is a very useful skill to have. We're much more able to face problems or situations (small or large) when we're taking care of ourselves. Little things like a power nap, turning in an hour early, drinking some water or having a snack, can go a long way to making things seem more manageable or less overwhelming.
Walking is good, do you have more activities you can do to keep you occupied? They don't need to be 'forever' hobbies, but just something for now.
Hope you're well.
That's pretty cool you're reading your body, cause/effect of things that you put into it. Being able to read your body is a very useful skill to have. We're much more able to face problems or situations (small or large) when we're taking care of ourselves. Little things like a power nap, turning in an hour early, drinking some water or having a snack, can go a long way to making things seem more manageable or less overwhelming.
Walking is good, do you have more activities you can do to keep you occupied? They don't need to be 'forever' hobbies, but just something for now.
Hope you're well.
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Liquor shop downstairs just shut for the day. I made it. Watching Netflix and going to bed soon. Thank you!!!
i really thought I was headed for a drink today. So looking forward to waking up rested, clear and sober!
i really thought I was headed for a drink today. So looking forward to waking up rested, clear and sober!
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Grateful but..
I woke up this morning this morning on 29 Feb rested and so very grateful for not drinking. No sweats, pounding heart, dizziness, anxiety or shame. But I couldn’t help but feel disappointed that I came close yesterday.
I went through such horrible anxiety and insomnia in Nov and Dec last year, it propelled my sobriety all through January. I didn’t even think about drinking and it felt empowering. I really felt like ‘I got this’ this time.
But the way I felt yesterday only proved I never really have this. I only have today. Actually I only have this minute. Looking back I was sort of fantasising a beer since mid February. I shrugged it off. I didn’t know what exactly to do with those feeling. Just observe without judgement? The thing is those feelings/thoughts start to snowball subconsciously. I think I need a new strategy. Still figuring this out. I’m very good at recognising what I’m feeling and why. But I came close yesterday.
This needs vigilance.
I went through such horrible anxiety and insomnia in Nov and Dec last year, it propelled my sobriety all through January. I didn’t even think about drinking and it felt empowering. I really felt like ‘I got this’ this time.
But the way I felt yesterday only proved I never really have this. I only have today. Actually I only have this minute. Looking back I was sort of fantasising a beer since mid February. I shrugged it off. I didn’t know what exactly to do with those feeling. Just observe without judgement? The thing is those feelings/thoughts start to snowball subconsciously. I think I need a new strategy. Still figuring this out. I’m very good at recognising what I’m feeling and why. But I came close yesterday.
This needs vigilance.
I know they are different Clark and I'm only 75 days sober, but wanted you to know that I have had days like that too. I think most of us have. Not this time around so much, but definitely previously. Ouch!
I thought of you this morning. I have recently given up smoking and found my self propelled to the shops to buy tobacco. Compelling. Addiction.
The discussion we had last night came to mind, and I remembered all we had spoken of and thought if Clark got through last night I can get get through today.
I didn't buy any, bought instead essential oil (Frankincense) which I'd read helped with depression. Probably doesn't but who cares I didn't buy cigarettes, still saved money, and my flat smells good. My lungs said thank you.
Thanks Clark and I'm really glad you made it.
I thought of you this morning. I have recently given up smoking and found my self propelled to the shops to buy tobacco. Compelling. Addiction.
The discussion we had last night came to mind, and I remembered all we had spoken of and thought if Clark got through last night I can get get through today.
I didn't buy any, bought instead essential oil (Frankincense) which I'd read helped with depression. Probably doesn't but who cares I didn't buy cigarettes, still saved money, and my flat smells good. My lungs said thank you.
Thanks Clark and I'm really glad you made it.
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