Day 322**
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Day 322**
A post from soberland day 322.
Got up at 3 am after a restless sleep so decided to get up. Made a coffee and jumped on here. Haven't been here for a while. Reading through posts and comments...
I never thought I genuinely could feel happy not drinking when I was in active addiction. Now I realise that I was NEVER happy when drinking. I was rather a miserable mess trying to find/wait for my next hit. That was not happiness, that was a chemically induced high. When the high wore off it was time to feed the monster again.
Now sober I can truly feel real happiness and I know that it comes from within and not from the bubbles in a bottle.
If I could bottle this that would be the real deal, gold.
Is life perfect. Not at all. I still have life's ups and downs but boy are they easier to deal with now without dealing with feeding and keeping that drinking monster alive at the same time. They said it gets easier and it certainly does.
Looking at addiction and alcohol from this side its a very sad view.I do not miss alcohol one bit. It used to be the centre of my universe for so many many years. Now when it has been removed my life has completely changed and I embrace what I have been given. I am a proud teetotaller!!!Never ever thought I say that. I am proud of it.
Got up at 3 am after a restless sleep so decided to get up. Made a coffee and jumped on here. Haven't been here for a while. Reading through posts and comments...
I never thought I genuinely could feel happy not drinking when I was in active addiction. Now I realise that I was NEVER happy when drinking. I was rather a miserable mess trying to find/wait for my next hit. That was not happiness, that was a chemically induced high. When the high wore off it was time to feed the monster again.
Now sober I can truly feel real happiness and I know that it comes from within and not from the bubbles in a bottle.
If I could bottle this that would be the real deal, gold.
Is life perfect. Not at all. I still have life's ups and downs but boy are they easier to deal with now without dealing with feeding and keeping that drinking monster alive at the same time. They said it gets easier and it certainly does.
Looking at addiction and alcohol from this side its a very sad view.I do not miss alcohol one bit. It used to be the centre of my universe for so many many years. Now when it has been removed my life has completely changed and I embrace what I have been given. I am a proud teetotaller!!!Never ever thought I say that. I am proud of it.
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