Sounds like you are at Step 1 - admitted we were powerless over our continual drinking / drugging - and - that our lives had become unmanageable.
The only way that eventually worked for me (after s-t-r-u-g-g-l-i-n-g for a long time - face in the pavement struggling) out from the Step 1 condition, is Step 2, then Step 3, then Step 4, and then continuing on, bludgeoning thru Step by Step... then ... some releif during Step 4 & 5, then more at Step 6 & 7, then continuing on thru the Steps ... 10,11,12 ... to COMPLETE FREEDOM.
If you're interested, or desperate enough like I was, send me a PM.
RDBplus3 ... Happy, Joyous and FREE ... and I Know U Can B 2