And there it is....
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And there it is....
That STUPID voice...saying it's gonna be OK to drink. Woke up after sleeping very well for about 7 hrs. As SOON as my eyes opened, I was thinking of a beer. Before y'all start saying "don't drink", today I won't cause Hubby is home and I gave him my car keys so I won't even be able to drink. I kinda made him my warden...BUT, he goes back to work tomorrow and that scares the crap outta me. So, I'll be totally alone all day. With my car keys. I need to focus today on building my strength and inner power. I've made a plan for this week of things I'm gonna do all day, and as long as I can stick to it, I'll be ok, but looking at it today, it's exhausting. I still feel very tired, so now questioning if I should just take it easy, or go balls to the wall with keeping busy. I'm also trying NOT to think about tomorrow, but it's hard...cause I know it's coming. Sorry for the rambling...just having a hard morning.....
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Hey there - waking up with that urge is crappy. And I'm sorry about your two anniversaries.
One simple thought that I REALLY had to employ at first: very simple, daily to do lists. Those first days and weeks, in addition to a meeting, my goals and sense of victory when doing were things like 1 eat twice 2 shower 3 make the bed 4 walk the dog. And if I just napped and hydrated and didn't drink - THAT was victory. I remember feeling like I should be doing more and being fearful that I never could or would be a viable adult again.....
What are your plans today? I'm still amazed at how one morning I can feel bad and if I focus on that day, I feel totally different the next day that I'd been about to let loom large.
Keep on here today. Take care of yourself.
One simple thought that I REALLY had to employ at first: very simple, daily to do lists. Those first days and weeks, in addition to a meeting, my goals and sense of victory when doing were things like 1 eat twice 2 shower 3 make the bed 4 walk the dog. And if I just napped and hydrated and didn't drink - THAT was victory. I remember feeling like I should be doing more and being fearful that I never could or would be a viable adult again.....
What are your plans today? I'm still amazed at how one morning I can feel bad and if I focus on that day, I feel totally different the next day that I'd been about to let loom large.
Keep on here today. Take care of yourself.
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Hey August...TY. My plans today are to finally do the dishes, make a trip to the flea market, then back home cause my BFF is finally gonna come over to have a little grill out. She is my closest friend and is full aware of my situation. She lives with a hard core alcoholic and is very supportive of me. It's gonna be nice to chat over some coffee and cheeseburgers. Then hopefully, early to bed, but we'll see
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hey braebear 
I know it's discouraging to hear that voice...but it's been a part of us for a long time.
I think he measure of recovery is not whether we hear that voice, but in what we do in response when we hear it.
The more times you beat it the weaker and fainter it becomes.
You've got this
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I know it's discouraging to hear that voice...but it's been a part of us for a long time.
I think he measure of recovery is not whether we hear that voice, but in what we do in response when we hear it.
The more times you beat it the weaker and fainter it becomes.
You've got this
D
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