Day One Again
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Day One Again
I posted on this site just a few times many years ago when I was abusing painkillers. I managed to stop, and it's been over 4 years since I've touched them. But since then, I haven't been sober. I've been abusing sleeping pills and Xanax.
I have 1/2 of a Xanax left, and I will be done. As this reality sets in, I'm starting to feel the anxiety that comes with knowing that tomorrow will be my first day sober. I only take these drugs at night (mainly for a sleep aid - I have pretty bad sleep issues). So tonight is it.
I know I need help this time (I somehow managed to stop the painkillers on my own), but I'm too scared to let anyone know about my addictions or go to a meeting. So I'm going to try this site for support.
I hope I'm posting in the right place. And I hope this post isn't too long. At this moment, I am pretty lost and feeling awful. Any advice or support will be appreciated more than you know.
I have 1/2 of a Xanax left, and I will be done. As this reality sets in, I'm starting to feel the anxiety that comes with knowing that tomorrow will be my first day sober. I only take these drugs at night (mainly for a sleep aid - I have pretty bad sleep issues). So tonight is it.
I know I need help this time (I somehow managed to stop the painkillers on my own), but I'm too scared to let anyone know about my addictions or go to a meeting. So I'm going to try this site for support.
I hope I'm posting in the right place. And I hope this post isn't too long. At this moment, I am pretty lost and feeling awful. Any advice or support will be appreciated more than you know.
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