sweetichick

I found their phone number had been cutoff when I rang today. This is the final step in his alienation of me. I lost them as soon as they started school but still had visitation with them. Then he cut that off when they went to high school. I am both sad and relieved and are finally getting closure. My daughter is 19 now and fully grown up. I bought a birthday card which I will send via my parents. There is nothing more I can do now. I have closure with my ex as well. No more playing breakup songs all day. I bought a couple of books off Amazon about women giving up. It's easy today. My stomach can't take any more alcohol. And I could barely get the card and some groceries. The mourning is over. I have no excuse or reason to drink. I feel a sense of peace.

PhoenixJ

support to youi, the only moment we have is now

Sweetpeacan

Thinking of you Sweetichick and glad to hear you have a feeling of peace today. SP xx

sweetichick

Thanks guys.

Hawkeye13

Sometimes we have the opportunity to rebuild ourselves free of the troubles of our past--I had to let go of my toxic relationship with my mother before I could release the pain and anger, feel the feelings, and find peace.

That made getting sober after many years so much easier for me.
You are free, and this is the only time any of us have.
Wishing you the best SC

badgerden

stay close sweetichick, lots of love and support here.

badge

Atlast9999

Thinking of you sweetie chick.

sweetichick

Thank you that means a lot. I waited for years for the kids to come around, tried to move on with new boyfriends. None of it worked out mainly due to continuing to drink and no job. I became a loser at life. Time to move forward now without my crutch.

yinzer

You have to work on yourself without the crutch. You can do it and we are always here. You are not alone....lots of us have been where you are.

Anna

I'm sorry that you decided to drink, Sweetichick. I'm glad you're back.

Hevyn

I'm so glad to see you too, sweeti. This can be the time you truly get free.

Opivotal

You are not a loser at life, sweetichick! I'm so sorry for your pain. Time to pick yourself up and start a new life. The best is yet to come. Once you find out who you are without alcohol, the possibilities are endless.

Hold your head up and start your journey.

You can do this! I believe in you.

Helianthus

Hi sweetichick

I'm sorry you drank but I'm glad you came back

sweetichick

I wrote my daughter a card today. It was extremely hard but I don't want to shut her off. I apologized for not not being a better mother but then said there were two sides to every story. My ex husband turned out to be gay. I am sure she has worked that out. I was used and abused and started drinking after our second child was born. That was the end of our marriage a year later. He didn't get his son. I didn't write any of this as the card has to go through my parents. I will wait until Christmas see if the lines of communication move at all and then send her another card. Problem is I am drinking again today. Couldn't think straight to write a card without a couple of drinks under my belt. Apparently this is fairly common...called writers cramp.

Helianthus

Just imagine being able to write in that Christmas card to your daughter that you are almost four months sober.

sweetichick

Thanks Hel. That would be absolutely brilliant. Just have to make it happen.

Helianthus

You can make it happen and we are here to help you

sweetichick

Thanks Hel. I will make it happen. Thanks for your support.

Helianthus

Hey sweetichick

How are you doing today?

Heli

Delilah1

Hi Sweetichick,

Just checking in to see how you are doing today.