andy1

Hello. My last post was called "fear of falling off the wagon". 3 days after I posted,..... I was drunk. I lasted 60 days sober, which was amazing and a surprise to me.

It just feels like I'm a coiled spring and the longer I go, the more likely I am to spring and fail. I've never been more than 60 days sober, and usually much less.

Anyway, sorry I failed, ...I'm still here so I know inside that sobriety is important. I have a music festival this weekend and for some reason I need to drink, but I'm starting sobriety on the 2nd again, and I hope I can last 60 days and longer.

Snowydelrico

You’ll have to gag that AV of yours if you want to succeed.
Good luck

doggonecarl

When your commitment to drink is stronger than your commitment to be sober, then you are bound to struggle.

Hope you find your way back to sobriety.

wildflower70

Hi Andy1,

Whenever I tried to postpone my quit date (for a party, festival ect...) the event I was going to ended up being a disaster.

Those things will always be there, why risk it one more time?
If your quit date is 7/2, what happens when the next party comes along?

All I'm saying is that things usually get worse, and why risk it?

ScottFromWI

If you do truly view society as important, you'll recognize that your "need" to drink this weekend is purely your addiction talking.

Why not make sobriety the MOST important thing in your life and commit to it right now, without question? As long as you put conditions on it and postpone it your results will be exactly the same as you've been getting.

Anna

Yeah, Scott is right. There is never a perfect time to stop drinking. I hope you decide to make today Day 1.

andy1

I recognise my AV everytime he speaks. I'll be back on the 2nd July. Thank you for being here SR. xx

dcg

Did you recognise him in your OP?

Nonsensical

I stopped taking advice from a known liar and my life got a lot better. I highly recommend it.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.

biminiblue

Obviously we can't stop you from drinking all the way up to July 2.

Recognizing AV and letting it drag me over a cliff are two very different things. AV is just a thought. I don't do everything my brain suggests. Throw a wrench through a car window when it breaks down? Steal a wallet left visible? Sleep with everyone who I fancy? My life would be a huge mess if I did everything that comes in my noggin.

If it's not good for you on July 2, it's not good for you now.

I hope nothing bad happens before now and then. What about the next "special" occasion? What's the plan?

I've made it through many special occasions and I didn't drink - and I'm happy to say that. No more bargaining with a killer.

August252015

I sure do agree with the others - and, also, you don't need to apologize to us. We are here to support you- this decision, though, is yours.

I think you already know what I'd say if I keep going.

I hope you make the right decision, now.

GreatInquiry7

Imagine what starts as a good time at the festival ends up a bad drunken situation that ends up in jail or the hospital that never would’ve happened drunk.

That’s what motivates me when I think like that.

teatreeoil007

Most all my music festivals whether just audience or performing in them or jamming and stuff was without alcohol. Enjoyed them immensely without alcohol. The music itself provides an awesome good time.

Dee74

Hi Andy- welcome back.
I also used to believe it was inevitable I'd go back to drinking...and sure enough ...self fulfilling prophecy.

The last time I quit, I wanted it to be for good - heck I needed it to be, so I actively worked at not drinking, not just vaguely hoping not to drink or vaguely hoping my 'spring' wouldn't coil so tight this time..

I made changes to my life that reflected my desire to be sober, I made sure I had enough support and that I used it, and I hammered out a recovery plan that would last me forever not just a few weeks.

so...I had to forgo things like music festivals for a while.

You have to be either in or out with recovery - there's no halfway.

If you're ready to leave alcohol behind too , you can can totally do this

D

ScottFromWI

Hope you were able to follow through on that plan Andy, we're always here if you need us.

16YearsDrunk

60 days is my max too. The last time I hit 60 I drank, and that started the whole cycle over again until I was ready to quit. I tried about 5 times after my 60 days to quit and each time it was harder. I bit the bullet one day and here I am. I'm 7 weeks, almost approaching 60 days.

You can do it again, but you have to want it enough to resist any urges or temptations.

Rar

I had bad struggles at 60-70 days.

August252015

Hey Andy- just wondering how you are doing? Hope you are working on 5 or more days sober. Let us know!

MindfulMan

Hope you are stopping now.

Yeah...I wouldn't do Coachella soon after sobriety. Music festivals were an excuse to take a lot of drugs and drink.

My last Coachella was sober, and really a lot of fun. I actually got to listen to music and remember it!