Lorij13099

I drank... i knew I was going to . Time to reevaluate.

Nonsensical

It was hard for me to overcome my old habits until I developed some new ones.

You can do this.

J50

The subconscious mind will believe anything the conscious mind tells it. Next time tell it you won't drink! As Nons said, old habits are tough to break, but it can be done.

Dee74

what kind of things are you reevaluating Lori?
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BrandNewDay11

I'm sorry Lori. What happened that compelled you to drink last night?

entropy1964

What happened? Did it help?

biminiblue

Go to bed sober tonight with a good meal in you.

Do that again tomorrow. It's that easy. You CAN make it harder, but it's just a matter of hitting the pillow sober tonight.

Lorij13099

Why I did it. ... I don't know... I'm just frustrated. mad.

Lorij13099

I was anxious, overthinking the thought got in my head and I got it out but then it kept nagging and nagging I had to silence the "voice" It wasn't as much as I would normally drink but it still happened.
It helped by silencing but nothing else and now I feel like crap for making the choice.

Lorij13099

It just got in my head and wouldn't stop.... I'm working through a lot of stuff in my marriage and therapy but that is not a good excuse I need to learn how to cope with actually feeling my feelings.

16YearsDrunk

Don't stress over it Lorij. It sounds to me like you knew you messed up and you're upset that you slipped. The good news is you're trying again

I've learned that any pain, hurt, heartache, anger, stress etc is temporary. I suffer with anger issues as a result of not drinking and there's been times I've wanted to pick up a beer to make this anger go away so I can go back to "normal" . 2 days ago the voices were screaming at me. But I hung in.

I post on here. I vent. I rant. I rage. And someone will pop along and give me advice. Sometimes all we need to do is let out our frustrations.

When I feel negative emotions I go to a quite place. The bathroom. A cupboard. Outside. The local woodland. Under my duvet. Somewhere where nobody can see me. And I'll just sit with my head in my hands and let the angry flow through me. Sometimes I'll cover my ears and block out all sound and listen to my own breathing. I focus on my breathing, or my heartbeat in my ears. Within 5 - 10 minutes it goes.

I then re-evaluate what got me upset, or angry, or sad. How can I not let that make me angry again? What could I have done instead? You can do the same for any emotion.

You need to travel through rough seas before you reach paradise It's going to be hard for a very long time. But it will get easier ... or so I'm told :p

SWB

Day 1 here again as well. The most important thing is we are aware of our mistakes, and are prepared to move ahead. We can do this.

sokatie

I agree with this. I'm trying to not think about 'not drinking', or 'drinking' and instead I just tell myself I'm living a healthy lifestyle now. That lifestyle includes drinking plenty of water, getting exercise, enjoying family and friends, and eating deliciously nutritious foods. I think we really just have to re-train our brains.

For now, I'm just faking it until I make it.

Forward12

You did great reaching out before the disaster, and got some amazing advice.
Why did you let it happen anyway?

Dee74

'Urge surfing' was a great help for me - that and many other ideas are here:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-cravings.html (CarolD's tips for cravings)

no one gets sober and is immediatly brilliant at dealing with life and feelings - but the more we do it sober the better it'll get

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lessgravity

Dee's urge surfing suggestion was a minor revelation for me and had served me well many times.

I think, like I said yesterday, going back and reviewing your old posts is helpful when the urge comes back. Why keep living this way?

Sounds like you need a plan.