BeelieveAgain

So I'm back to day 13. I started going to meetings at the end of February and I found a sponsor. But I keep getting a week or two sober and quitting. Sometimes it’s stress sometimes it’s just wanting it so bad I can’t handle it. But in two months I've gone from drinking every day to drinking a hanful of times. PROGRESS! Im forcing myself to go to meetings even though I don't feel like it. To be honest though, I don't feel like doing anything, I have no appetite for life at all right now. I’m hoping that’s just a side effect of drinking for so long and will pass because it’s a pretty empty feeling. But I have no plans to drink today and I woke up with out a hangover, so yeah. Ill take it.

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lessgravity

Congrats that's a sweet number of days to string together sober.

What plans do you have though once the devil on your shoulder starts talking?

Nice work.

Dee74

Welcome to SR BeelieveAgain

are you going through the Steps?

D

BeelieveAgain

Im reading the big book (mostly the prayers) and going to two step studies a week. But my sponser wants me to have 30 days before i start working the steps.

August252015

I'm glad you are working the steps, sort of, and have a sponsor.

Just to add my experience- I got my first sponsor at 97 days. I had "mentally" done steps 1-3 on my own, so to speak; we did them "formally" when we started working together. So I do believe there are different ways to skin a cat here; progress is the point. A 30 day mark isn't a bad idea for being able to have more clarity and focus as you begin working them for real.

There is a sometimes fine line between the "suggestions" (which some people take as the gospel, if you will) of AA and the "take what you want and leave the rest idea." If your sponsor is teaching you in the way that got and kept him/her sober- that's the point. What you do with it to keep moving is up to you.

Keep coming back.