Don't know what to do.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
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Don't know what to do.
No money, no job. Drinking again. I don't know how to get the help I need. Very paranoid. Can't trust anyone. Not sure what I should do. Family/friends gave up years ago. I can't even trust my immediate family members. Alcohol just makes me forget. An escape from my fear about things. Tried therapy, but lost trust in her.
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: FRANCE
Posts: 5,230
Hey my old friend.
You were one of the people who greeted me when I joined SR.
I remember distinctly cause we share the same birthdays, you were my birthday twin, 18th August right ?.
You got back on the wagon before. Your here now. COme on... fight
When we are in the grips of it its like a science fiction film there is no logic. We have our ups and downs and god knows there are so many things we have to fix but the one day we are fixed or we die broken.
The community here will help you through it if you leave them.
Will today be Day 1 ?
Vinny
You were one of the people who greeted me when I joined SR.
I remember distinctly cause we share the same birthdays, you were my birthday twin, 18th August right ?.
You got back on the wagon before. Your here now. COme on... fight
When we are in the grips of it its like a science fiction film there is no logic. We have our ups and downs and god knows there are so many things we have to fix but the one day we are fixed or we die broken.
The community here will help you through it if you leave them.
Will today be Day 1 ?
Vinny
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
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But I can't trust anyone. My own family refused to help me when I reached out for help. Don't even trust my doctor. Try spending 7 years completely alone and finding out you were ignored when you realized you needed help
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Humans are social animals. I am an introvert but I have been ignored my entire life. Almost died last year from hypothermia and not even a call. **** family. **** Ireland, most cynical people ever. No wonder they leave
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Hi wastinglife
Its a real catch 22 cos the only way out of that paranoia and the dark world view is to stop drinking.
Noone here has any kind of agenda.
All we want to do is provide support and maybe some good suggestions
D
Its a real catch 22 cos the only way out of that paranoia and the dark world view is to stop drinking.
Noone here has any kind of agenda.
All we want to do is provide support and maybe some good suggestions
D
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
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Welcome back! This is a great place to start st day one again, there is unconditional support, and you can trust you will always find someone on SR to support you along your journey.
Why don't you join us on the 24 hour thread, it is a great place to check in each morning, and also to find support from an amazing group of people.
You can also join the April 2018 class to have the support of others who have committed, or recommitted to sobriety this month.
You can do this.
Why don't you join us on the 24 hour thread, it is a great place to check in each morning, and also to find support from an amazing group of people.
You can also join the April 2018 class to have the support of others who have committed, or recommitted to sobriety this month.
You can do this.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Waste,
Imo...The addiction for life.
All drinking ever did was make things worse.
If your family is not there for you, you still have sr.
My family is around but they do their own thing. I am generally alone most of the time.
As I get older I expect it to worsen.
SR is a virtual family and can offer care and support.
It is better than nothing.
I use it almost daily
Thanks.
Imo...The addiction for life.
All drinking ever did was make things worse.
If your family is not there for you, you still have sr.
My family is around but they do their own thing. I am generally alone most of the time.
As I get older I expect it to worsen.
SR is a virtual family and can offer care and support.
It is better than nothing.
I use it almost daily
Thanks.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Florida., USA
Posts: 3,252
Originally Posted by D122y 
Waste,
Imo...The addiction for life.
All drinking ever did was make things worse.
If your family is not there for you, you still have sr.
My family is around but they do their own thing. I am generally alone most of the time.
As I get older I expect it to worsen.
SR is a virtual family and can offer care and support.
It is better than nothing.
I use it almost daily
Thanks.
Imo...The addiction for life.
All drinking ever did was make things worse.
If your family is not there for you, you still have sr.
My family is around but they do their own thing. I am generally alone most of the time.
As I get older I expect it to worsen.
SR is a virtual family and can offer care and support.
It is better than nothing.
I use it almost daily
Thanks.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
Posts: 15,281
i found it quite amazing how my views on society were skewered when i was drinking.
over 7,000 views and 200+ replies with great support and suggestions in your threads here.
and heres a kicker,which was quite a bit like myself:
lookin outward at the world and not inward at myself. the workd controlled me quite bad at times. and yet it wasnt the world i had to be concered about, but my own view of myself that i had to look at. THAT is what i had to work on changing.
over 7,000 views and 200+ replies with great support and suggestions in your threads here.
and heres a kicker,which was quite a bit like myself:
lookin outward at the world and not inward at myself. the workd controlled me quite bad at times. and yet it wasnt the world i had to be concered about, but my own view of myself that i had to look at. THAT is what i had to work on changing.
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You can always find an excuse to keep drinking. Sad/happy/lonely/scared/alone, they are all just excuses Wastinglife. You choose to start drinking every day, and you can also choose to not drink. Perhaps if you did choose to quit, you could start building some trust in yourself...which is where you need to begin.
Maybe if you think of this practically it will help. If you have no money and no job, where do you get the money to purchase alcohol? There are many steps and choices you are making to obtain it.... cut off the supply at the head first thing in the morning. Call your local drug/rehab resource or the AA hotline. Those are people who you can trust to help you detox safely.
Maybe if you think of this practically it will help. If you have no money and no job, where do you get the money to purchase alcohol? There are many steps and choices you are making to obtain it.... cut off the supply at the head first thing in the morning. Call your local drug/rehab resource or the AA hotline. Those are people who you can trust to help you detox safely.
Last edited by ScottFromWI; 04-22-2018 at 06:45 AM.
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Wastinglife,
I my final months of drinking I had receded to the family basement and never came up. Everyone was out to get me. I prepared for the end times. I had purchased several cases of cheap liquor in plastic bottles. I was in a dark corner, surrounded by empty vodka bottles & ammunition, watching YouTube videos of defending against societal collapse.
What I didn’t consider was that I had collapsed. My liquor ran out so I reached for the rubbing alcohol.....
....when I came to, I was in the hospital ICU with tubes & wires everywhere. I lost my marriage, children, job, and almost my life that day.
My Day 1....dark indeed. That was 534 days ago.
I repeat day 1 every day because every day is day 1, except each one after the first has been a sober day. It took near death and putting myself into the care of strangers I had to trust. That first day I didn’t ever think I was going to survive. I now work (lesser job, less money), my health has improved, I have a new partner who cares for me, and kids who at least email me. An opportunity to be grateful.
We all live Day 1.
Blessings, Eric
I my final months of drinking I had receded to the family basement and never came up. Everyone was out to get me. I prepared for the end times. I had purchased several cases of cheap liquor in plastic bottles. I was in a dark corner, surrounded by empty vodka bottles & ammunition, watching YouTube videos of defending against societal collapse.
What I didn’t consider was that I had collapsed. My liquor ran out so I reached for the rubbing alcohol.....
....when I came to, I was in the hospital ICU with tubes & wires everywhere. I lost my marriage, children, job, and almost my life that day.
My Day 1....dark indeed. That was 534 days ago.
I repeat day 1 every day because every day is day 1, except each one after the first has been a sober day. It took near death and putting myself into the care of strangers I had to trust. That first day I didn’t ever think I was going to survive. I now work (lesser job, less money), my health has improved, I have a new partner who cares for me, and kids who at least email me. An opportunity to be grateful.
We all live Day 1.
Blessings, Eric
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Western New York
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Hi old friend- one of the earliest replies to me was that recovery is an inside job. I was mad at the time that my wife continued to drink alcoholicly and wasnt supportive of me.
In the end though, i was using it as an excuse to drink. Support was available; maybe not what i wanted, but it was there. I had to learn to seek out what was available, and focus on myself. Harder said than done and still a work in progress.
Sending you my support and empathy. Its an aweful struggle and i hope you stick around.
In the end though, i was using it as an excuse to drink. Support was available; maybe not what i wanted, but it was there. I had to learn to seek out what was available, and focus on myself. Harder said than done and still a work in progress.
Sending you my support and empathy. Its an aweful struggle and i hope you stick around.
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