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Old 02-25-2018, 07:47 PM
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Day one

Iíve been lurking a bit trying to get my nerve up. Iíve been drinking 6-9 beers a day for over 20 years.

Tonight things are pretty confusing. I didnít hit a rock bottom and get arrested or anything, Iím just really sick of always worrying about how much beer I have and when can I let myself have my first drink.

I want control over this thirst. I meditated and prayed today like I havenít in a long time. I wasnít planning on saying anything to my wife, but she just knows things. Iím terrified that Iíll fall to weakness this time, like I have so many times in the past.

One day at a time, huh?
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Old 02-25-2018, 08:01 PM
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Welcome Tex! Day One is always the hardest...the only way to get distance between yourself and the obsession to drink is sober time. Read, read, read...then read some more. Knowledge is power so learn all you can about alcoholism. You will find many like us. Best to you!
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Thank you. Iím working on it. Just a headache and nerves so far.
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Welcome to SR! You will find lots of support on here.
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Welcome ScaredTexan

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Old 02-26-2018, 07:21 AM
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Day 2. Anxious, but nothing serious. Trying to stay busy. Took Ativan last night, but I still think I woke up every 15 minutes.

My biggest fear is that Iím going to start having major withdrawals. I read about so many people going through it, and Iíve seen it in my professional life.
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Old 02-26-2018, 07:26 AM
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Keep it going Texan. I know what you mean about major withdrawals. I had so much anxiety on my first day that I didn't know what was withdrawal or anxiety about any potential serious withdrawal (like DTs). I was ready to seek medical help if needed. Good to stay aware of anything serious happening with yourself.
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Day 3. Last night was rough. I was in the garage with something mechanical that I couldnít get to work. Stressed out. My usual response would be go go to the convenient garage fridge and get a cold beer. My wife came along and helped talk me down. Bless her.

I actually slept like a rock last night. When my alarm went off, I canceled my morning meeting and went back to sleep. I wonít say I feel good, but Iím getting by one day at a time.

Thanks for the support guys. I think it helps just to say whatís running through my head.
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Old 02-27-2018, 05:44 PM
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Congrats on day 3 ST - great stuff - and it gets better

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