Rodney18

of you that have “slipped”- it’s gonna be aliright.
Last week I drank some beer
I stopped before the real binge began and haven’t drank since
It’s a minor thing for me and I’m back on the Sobriety Train, so to speak.
I tested myself and I failed
But I’m still fighting
And if anything, it’s made me fight harder

Komplex

Glad you came back!!!!!!!

wayforward

Yes, definitely. My mind has that awful habit of thinking that just because I've slipped, it means I might as well go all out. The same applies to cheating on my diet oddly enough, heh.

Dee74

I'm sorry you drank Rodney - and I apologise in advance because I'm going to put you on the spot..

Just curious - what made you test yourself?
Do you think you can you avoid more testing now?

You can treat those as rhetorical questions if you like, but I hope you give it some thought.

I'm all for moving forward, but drinking again isn't really a minor thing.

My addicted self wants me to think it is because my addiction wants a second strike.

For me the bottom line is if I drink again, my plan is not good enough.

I think when we drink again, we need to look at what happened and why and then give some serious thought to what we've been doing for our recovery, and then on what we might add to it in future.

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Offthemast

Because we didn't truly take drinking off the table. Scary as **** but absolutely necessary. A true deep down soul searching decision.

I hear ya Rodney.

Numblady

And also glad you were able to get back on the sobriety train!

biminiblue

Slip? You mean you planned to drink and you did, no "slipping" involved. It was no accident, there was fore-planning and execution.

My addiction would be telling me, "See! You can have drinks without a binge. It isn't so bad! I just start again!...I've got this!"

Oh, yeah, that's what yours is saying too. That's dangerous thinking.

There are not unlimited chances to get sober. "It's a minor thing"? Really?

I think every time I went back it made it much more psychologically difficult and physically more dangerous:

Kindling - NIH

Rodney18

Hey Dee74- i didnt notice your question in your post 'til now
Weird and scary thing is- i honestly dont know what made meslip up that day
Complacency maybe...but if so i wasnt conscious of it
It was a strange evening