5 months and I drank
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5 months and I drank
As the title says, don't know why really. I think I was testing myself. 4th November had a pint of shandy, thought yeah I can have one and leave it. Following Saturday had about 6 pints. Left the pub didn't feel to bad the next day. Again thought I've got this under control. Following weekend no control over stopping. blacked out, could only remember bits of the night. Spent the next day In bed vomiting until all that was coming out was bile. Had really bad shakes.
Last night went out "controlled" it or did it control me? Didn't drink to much but absolutely dying today from the hangover.
The problems alcohol cause are for life. Maybe some people can moderate, I can't. Maybe this needed to happen now to help me realise this.
I should have been celebrating 6 months sober today. I'm not feeling really depressed (thought I would) I'm on day 1 again and I am determined to do it this time.
Just wanted to post this and hopefully stop anyone else who thinks that after a period of abstinence they are somehow fixed. Your not!
Wishing you all well on your journey towards sobriety.
Last night went out "controlled" it or did it control me? Didn't drink to much but absolutely dying today from the hangover.
The problems alcohol cause are for life. Maybe some people can moderate, I can't. Maybe this needed to happen now to help me realise this.
I should have been celebrating 6 months sober today. I'm not feeling really depressed (thought I would) I'm on day 1 again and I am determined to do it this time.
Just wanted to post this and hopefully stop anyone else who thinks that after a period of abstinence they are somehow fixed. Your not!
Wishing you all well on your journey towards sobriety.
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thanks for posting this ...
... it helps me a lot !
as an alcoholic the most natural normal thing in the world is to want to change the way i feel with drugs/ alcohol
a good friend recently drank after 27 years
im going to my regular (aa) meeting tonight
12/17/17 is a really cool sobriety date
... it helps me a lot !
as an alcoholic the most natural normal thing in the world is to want to change the way i feel with drugs/ alcohol
a good friend recently drank after 27 years
im going to my regular (aa) meeting tonight
12/17/17 is a really cool sobriety date
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I've come to the conclusion for me that there is no point in having just one beer. Why would I have just one? when I can have a cup of coffee, pop, whatever. If I'm going to have one beer then its going to be followed by a bunch of them. there is only one reason I drink, and its to get drunk. I'm an alcoholic
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Originally Posted by Canuckleman45 
I've come to the conclusion for me that there is no point in having just one beer. Why would I have just one? when I can have a cup of coffee, pop, whatever. If I'm going to have one beer then its going to be followed by a bunch of them. there is only one reason I drink, and its to get drunk. I'm an alcoholic
It's why I can no longer drink.
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Welcome back.
Get yourself back on track now and make this the one.
I think we all know now dont we that we never get cured.
We eventually learn that its not going to be any different.
The first drink will be the oe that makes us blackout.
Its guaranteed.
Get yourself back on track now and make this the one.
I think we all know now dont we that we never get cured.
We eventually learn that its not going to be any different.
The first drink will be the oe that makes us blackout.
Its guaranteed.
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This site kept me from going into a relapse situation after my last slip.
Coming here keeps the experience, memories, and reasons why I quit fresh.
I don't drink anymore. Now when I come here, each visit is like a booster shot of anti drink.
The reminders of brain damage seem to like to fade.
The av is cunning.
Thanks.
Coming here keeps the experience, memories, and reasons why I quit fresh.
I don't drink anymore. Now when I come here, each visit is like a booster shot of anti drink.
The reminders of brain damage seem to like to fade.
The av is cunning.
Thanks.
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It's amazing that WE think we can moderate when all empirical evidence suggests we can not. Yet WE continue to think we can.
The best thing that ever happened to me was the realization I could never moderate my drinking.
I hope you have come to the same conclusion.
The best thing that ever happened to me was the realization I could never moderate my drinking.
I hope you have come to the same conclusion.
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This is a great post and all of the comments are very helpful! I’ve had more day ones than the earth has years and posts like this help keep me on the straight and narrow. Complacency is a killer and this is a great reminder to protect yourself at all times.
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Thanks for all the replies.
What's amazing is that I had started to think I hadn't noticed a great change and I thought I should have felt better than I did. It's only now after a binge that I realise I was feeling a lot better.
The brain fog and sluggishness is terrible today. I actually felt nervous driving, my reactions were terrible and it felt like such an effort at junctions trying look for other traffic.
I know this will go and the journey doesn't feel as daunting as on previous attempts as I know what awaits me.
Something else I realised today is that since I started drinking again I have lost my temper really quickly over silly things like people que jumping in shops. That had pretty much stopped. Funny that!
Day 2 nearly over looking forward to a sober Christmas.
What's amazing is that I had started to think I hadn't noticed a great change and I thought I should have felt better than I did. It's only now after a binge that I realise I was feeling a lot better.
The brain fog and sluggishness is terrible today. I actually felt nervous driving, my reactions were terrible and it felt like such an effort at junctions trying look for other traffic.
I know this will go and the journey doesn't feel as daunting as on previous attempts as I know what awaits me.
Something else I realised today is that since I started drinking again I have lost my temper really quickly over silly things like people que jumping in shops. That had pretty much stopped. Funny that!
Day 2 nearly over looking forward to a sober Christmas.
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