Day 5. I feel like I got run over by a truck
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Day 5. I feel like I got run over by a truck
Last night was going perfectly for not drinking until the end of the night. I got in a little argument with my husband at work (we run a small business together) and someone was trolling our business google page and giving us bad fake reviews.
I was really upset and I couldn't concentrate at all. I started believing the troll and feeling like a big fake, like I didn't deserve my business, or my friends or anything. I could not see the point of continuing on my business or my life, let alone sobriety. My husband left early and I had to drive home myself and I figured why not stop??
But I didn't. I went home and cried instead and talked things out with him. Then I saw that google had taken down the fake review and my friends had filled up google with good reviews to counter-act the bad one. I felt better, we got Mcdonalds and binge watched a new show.
I still don't feel very good today, I think my depression is trying to get stronger to make me drink, if that makes sense? Like if it can't start it night it has to start first thing in the morning. That's what today feels like. I am committed to seeing day 6. Any number higher than that is too overwhelming to think about.
I was really upset and I couldn't concentrate at all. I started believing the troll and feeling like a big fake, like I didn't deserve my business, or my friends or anything. I could not see the point of continuing on my business or my life, let alone sobriety. My husband left early and I had to drive home myself and I figured why not stop??
But I didn't. I went home and cried instead and talked things out with him. Then I saw that google had taken down the fake review and my friends had filled up google with good reviews to counter-act the bad one. I felt better, we got Mcdonalds and binge watched a new show.
I still don't feel very good today, I think my depression is trying to get stronger to make me drink, if that makes sense? Like if it can't start it night it has to start first thing in the morning. That's what today feels like. I am committed to seeing day 6. Any number higher than that is too overwhelming to think about.
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I was much too sensitive in early days, too. Hang on, it gets better.
With that said, life is always going to throw stuff at you. Sobriety makes it much easier to deal with little (and big ) things.
Well done, not drinking! One victory at a time.
With that said, life is always going to throw stuff at you. Sobriety makes it much easier to deal with little (and big ) things.
Well done, not drinking! One victory at a time.
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Originally Posted by Ohme 
Last night was going perfectly for not drinking until the end of the night. I got in a little argument with my husband at work (we run a small business together) and someone was trolling our business google page and giving us bad fake reviews.
I was really upset and I couldn't concentrate at all. I started believing the troll and feeling like a big fake, like I didn't deserve my business, or my friends or anything. I could not see the point of continuing on my business or my life, let alone sobriety. My husband left early and I had to drive home myself and I figured why not stop??
But I didn't. I went home and cried instead and talked things out with him. Then I saw that google had taken down the fake review and my friends had filled up google with good reviews to counter-act the bad one. I felt better, we got Mcdonalds and binge watched a new show.
I still don't feel very good today, I think my depression is trying to get stronger to make me drink, if that makes sense? Like if it can't start it night it has to start first thing in the morning. That's what today feels like. I am committed to seeing day 6. Any number higher than that is too overwhelming to think about.
I was really upset and I couldn't concentrate at all. I started believing the troll and feeling like a big fake, like I didn't deserve my business, or my friends or anything. I could not see the point of continuing on my business or my life, let alone sobriety. My husband left early and I had to drive home myself and I figured why not stop??
But I didn't. I went home and cried instead and talked things out with him. Then I saw that google had taken down the fake review and my friends had filled up google with good reviews to counter-act the bad one. I felt better, we got Mcdonalds and binge watched a new show.
I still don't feel very good today, I think my depression is trying to get stronger to make me drink, if that makes sense? Like if it can't start it night it has to start first thing in the morning. That's what today feels like. I am committed to seeing day 6. Any number higher than that is too overwhelming to think about.
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5 days is a great start. For many of us, our emotions are all over the board early on. My advice would be don't make any major or foolish decisions in early sobriety. Our minds are still adjusting and it can get kind of crazy.
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I'm glad you got the business issue sorted out.
In my experience, the AV does kick up more a fuss when it realizes that it's losing. You're heading into Day 6 and your AV sees that you're really doing this, so it's speaking louder. But, things will get easier.
In my experience, the AV does kick up more a fuss when it realizes that it's losing. You're heading into Day 6 and your AV sees that you're really doing this, so it's speaking louder. But, things will get easier.
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