I am now over a month sober!
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I am now over a month sober!
Hey there soberfriends.
So two days ago I ran over the month mark of my sobriety, something that a few weeks ago seemed like a near impossible hill to climb. I thought that this would be much worse, not that it hasn't been hard because it has, but when I was drinking I convinced myself of the horrors that would come with sobriety. And I now know that a lot of that was my av voice convincing me to stay drunk.
Firstly I was worried about my health and while I didn't get away with my years of abuse completely unscathed, the image I had of me never being able to live a normal life due to the damage I've done never came and as long as I stay sober, never will.
In terms of psychological problems I certainly still struggle with anxiety and depression, but what I imagined which was a life of relentless misery the kind I felt when I woke up after a heavy night but stretched out indefinitely was a lie. I still get sad and worried but I also feel happy a lot of the time and the latter becomes more frequent the longer I stay sober.
So I guess what I've learned in this month, and what I would say to anyone reading this who hasn't decided to quit yet is that a lot of your worries is your av voice lying to you, yes there are hardships but they also come with a lot of joy and there's light at the end of the tunnel its just that drinking makes it hard to see that.
But, but I'd say, I have been here before. I have made it to a month before. However, then my drinking wasn't as bad and my intention was never to quit forever I was merely doing the old "if I can stop drinking for a month I don't have a problem routine".
So for me, the real journey starts here because now I'm in uncharted territory, or at least where I haven't been for around a decade. So I suppose I'm off on the next leg of my sober adventure.
So two days ago I ran over the month mark of my sobriety, something that a few weeks ago seemed like a near impossible hill to climb. I thought that this would be much worse, not that it hasn't been hard because it has, but when I was drinking I convinced myself of the horrors that would come with sobriety. And I now know that a lot of that was my av voice convincing me to stay drunk.
Firstly I was worried about my health and while I didn't get away with my years of abuse completely unscathed, the image I had of me never being able to live a normal life due to the damage I've done never came and as long as I stay sober, never will.
In terms of psychological problems I certainly still struggle with anxiety and depression, but what I imagined which was a life of relentless misery the kind I felt when I woke up after a heavy night but stretched out indefinitely was a lie. I still get sad and worried but I also feel happy a lot of the time and the latter becomes more frequent the longer I stay sober.
So I guess what I've learned in this month, and what I would say to anyone reading this who hasn't decided to quit yet is that a lot of your worries is your av voice lying to you, yes there are hardships but they also come with a lot of joy and there's light at the end of the tunnel its just that drinking makes it hard to see that.
But, but I'd say, I have been here before. I have made it to a month before. However, then my drinking wasn't as bad and my intention was never to quit forever I was merely doing the old "if I can stop drinking for a month I don't have a problem routine".
So for me, the real journey starts here because now I'm in uncharted territory, or at least where I haven't been for around a decade. So I suppose I'm off on the next leg of my sober adventure.
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CONGRATULATIONS!!
Keep on going. Keep on deepening. Keep on LIVING!!
Your points about anxiety and depression - and JOY are great ones.
I've discovered in my sobriety that there has long been a current of anxiety and depression threaded through my life. It hasn't gone away in sobriety - but it's come into my awareness in ways that finally allow me to address it and to grow and to live my life with presence and awareness and fullness.
Keep on going. Keep on deepening. Keep on LIVING!!
Your points about anxiety and depression - and JOY are great ones.
I've discovered in my sobriety that there has long been a current of anxiety and depression threaded through my life. It hasn't gone away in sobriety - but it's come into my awareness in ways that finally allow me to address it and to grow and to live my life with presence and awareness and fullness.
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