Finally doing it.
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Finally doing it.
Hello, I have finally made a serious plan to stop drinking.
I have been addicted to alcohol since I was 12.
I started smoking rock when i was 13 and now have completely stamped that out of my life.
I drank a lot during my teenage years. My diet consisted of goon and rock. I can still smell it.
As I slowly progressed into my adult life, and I stopped smoking rock, alcohol became a bigger addiction. My one and only.
I have been on a path of self awareness for the past 4 years and have uncovered a lot of **** from my past. Some child hood trauma, neglect and abuse. During this time (and currently) I would have epic states of overwhelming emotion. Some of the emotion was too much. I had thoughts of hurting children so I wanted to hurt myself. I wanted to get out of my head space to stop having those thoughts. So alcohol was my numbing agent. Alcohol and pills.
I stopped taking pills in February this year. And I have moved into a sanctuary with my boyfriend. I want to free myself from needing alcohol to cope with my emotions. I want to quit alcohol. Today was my first day not drinking. I have eaten my weights worth in chocolate. ahahha
I have been addicted to alcohol since I was 12.
I started smoking rock when i was 13 and now have completely stamped that out of my life.
I drank a lot during my teenage years. My diet consisted of goon and rock. I can still smell it.
As I slowly progressed into my adult life, and I stopped smoking rock, alcohol became a bigger addiction. My one and only.
I have been on a path of self awareness for the past 4 years and have uncovered a lot of **** from my past. Some child hood trauma, neglect and abuse. During this time (and currently) I would have epic states of overwhelming emotion. Some of the emotion was too much. I had thoughts of hurting children so I wanted to hurt myself. I wanted to get out of my head space to stop having those thoughts. So alcohol was my numbing agent. Alcohol and pills.
I stopped taking pills in February this year. And I have moved into a sanctuary with my boyfriend. I want to free myself from needing alcohol to cope with my emotions. I want to quit alcohol. Today was my first day not drinking. I have eaten my weights worth in chocolate. ahahha
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