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Insanity
I am still sober. Almost to 300 days and I have almost lost my sanity for a few days! It has been really really scary. I don't really want to go into specifics because I am working on it with my counselor and have kind of beaten a dead horse at this point. I really thought that drinking may be my only relief. My mind kind of went in flight or fight mode with a situation and I panicked trying to find ways out and my brain literally wouldn't stop. It brought up so many feelings from long ago. I still feel shaky BUT I've been to meetings, I've cried, I went to my counselor, I went to walk with a friend, I've prayed... and I'm reaching out to you guys. Facing things from the past that I never have and not being able to numb myself. This can be a crazy ride. I am determined to come out on the other side !!
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Well all I have heard in recovery... reach out for help reach out for help... and I'm trying to! And people have been supportive. I feel better but I'm still so shaky from that plus lack of sleep and I thought oh my gosh my online forum!! I haven't talked to you guys in awhile
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It's not that I wanted to drink but I actually thought I may have to resort back to it to stop the thinking.... I have not had this happen that I can recall in recovery. So scary that would even be a thought... luckily I have a little bit of sanity for now
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I am not super sure. I'm actually quite shocked I hve been feeling this way the last few days. Ive had problems in the past with being in a controlling relationship from a long time ago and i ran into a guy I knew way back when (not the same one) and he's in recovery almost 6 months sober and I thought here can be a sober friend but he began texting me a lot and really having no boundaries what so ever and being pushy but making it seem nice and I flipping panicked! I mean I thought omg I can't do this!! And I only texted him for two weeks. it hit me.... maybe I never dealt with those feelings of my past relationship where I was controlled. Anyways I told this guy I can't do this right now and he said he understood. But wow what the heck happened to me?? Also I quit smoking like 40 days ago and maybe I've just lost my damn mind lol.
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It felt like a panick attack... 3 whole days of one... I still have it slightly but not as bad...
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I think people who have their minds intact are the ones who say " I've lost my mind!". People who have literally lost their minds do not make such statements. They just go about their business never knowing or being able to realize that something is "off".
You are doing great! Really great!
Good to see you have boundaries.
You are doing great! Really great!
Good to see you have boundaries.
ive had similar in the past where they were prolonged like that. it would come and go but never leave fully. it feels like insanity youre right but it isn't. youre not crazy, youre stressed and overwhelmed. eventually you wont be so much, keep talking and reaching out
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you should consult a doctor if it is that prolonged to be safe and reassured.
ive had similar in the past where they were prolonged like that. it would come and go but never leave fully. it feels like insanity youre right but it isn't. youre not crazy, youre stressed and overwhelmed. eventually you wont be so much, keep talking and reaching out
ive had similar in the past where they were prolonged like that. it would come and go but never leave fully. it feels like insanity youre right but it isn't. youre not crazy, youre stressed and overwhelmed. eventually you wont be so much, keep talking and reaching out
Hi, Linz. Definitely talk to your counselor about what happened and the feelings it triggered in you. Though they are scary, these feelings mean something. Finding that out is important to your recovery.
Good luck. Keep checking in. Good stuff here.
Good luck. Keep checking in. Good stuff here.
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