Guess what AV?
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Guess what AV?
11 days ago I posted on this site for the first time. I'd been sober for 5 months at that point; something I'd managed to do by reading posts on this site. But suddenly, reading posts didn't seem enough. I felt like I needed to reach out. I felt like I needed to connect with people who would understand. So I plucked up the courage and posted.
There followed the ten toughest days of this journey so far. My AV upped it's game and yelled constantly at me to drink; I went through 2 days when I couldn't stop crying and my brain fog got so bad I thought I might have a brain tumour or something. Throughout all this I continued to read the posts on this site and every so often I posted something myself.
My AV mocked me repeatedly. How could posting in a forum make any difference in the real world? How could a bunch of strangers scattered around the world make any difference to how I feel and what I do? Well guess what AV? Today the fog has cleared and I'm feeling better than I have in years. Ever since that first post I've felt supported and understood which has given me the strength to weather this 10 day storm without picking up a drink.
So today I get to enjoy day 165. And I don't think that would be happening if it wasn't for this site. So thank you strangers scattered around the world. Thank you for being there. And for proving my AV wrong.
There followed the ten toughest days of this journey so far. My AV upped it's game and yelled constantly at me to drink; I went through 2 days when I couldn't stop crying and my brain fog got so bad I thought I might have a brain tumour or something. Throughout all this I continued to read the posts on this site and every so often I posted something myself.
My AV mocked me repeatedly. How could posting in a forum make any difference in the real world? How could a bunch of strangers scattered around the world make any difference to how I feel and what I do? Well guess what AV? Today the fog has cleared and I'm feeling better than I have in years. Ever since that first post I've felt supported and understood which has given me the strength to weather this 10 day storm without picking up a drink.
So today I get to enjoy day 165. And I don't think that would be happening if it wasn't for this site. So thank you strangers scattered around the world. Thank you for being there. And for proving my AV wrong.
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K- sharing is the whole point. I planned a journey in life- that did not work out at all. Doing sobriety alone is a tough gig for me. I post when I am happy, lost, scared, cynical- depressed. Anytime but especially when I do not want to. Awesome on the sober 165. Keep posting.
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Nice. This site is a source of strength for me, too - has been since day 3.
I had a tough few weeks at five months, too. After that passed it has been really smooth sailing for me. There was something about that six month soberversary that messed with me.
Glad you're here.
I had a tough few weeks at five months, too. After that passed it has been really smooth sailing for me. There was something about that six month soberversary that messed with me.
Glad you're here.
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