I choose to live
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
All of my family were supportive of me getting
well, whatever it took and takes. While I was in
rehab it was suggested to my husband, (not an
alcoholic) to remove all the alcohol in the house
upon my return in which he did do.
Since I was new in recovery, this first time
sober using a program of recovery as my
guideline taught to me, I would still be going
thru many changes, mentally, emotionally,
physically, good days, low days, roller coaster
rides of emotions, then not having alcohol
around me so I wouldn't be tempted would
be the best, healthiest way to remain sober
no matter what.
Have you ever searched for AA in your area?
You can call your local Central AA Office and
they can let you know where these meetings
are located and the times available.
You don't have to be ashamed of having a
problem drinking. Addiction to alcohol or
drugs is an epidemic in the world and affects
many many folks and many of these folks
die every single day because of it.
Its a progressive disease and unless something
is done about it then it will continue to destroy
people. We are not bad people. Just sick with
this progressive illness unless it is put to rest.
We feel bad because this addiction keeps us
sick in mind body and soul until we do something
about it and most folks have no idea how to stop
this insanity until someone teaches them how
to live each day with a program of recovery as
a guideline to keep them sober.
No one is gonna want or understand what
you need more so than you. I mean family
many want the best for you, but only you
will need to want to be sober more than
anything. You will need to do this for yourself.
To go to any lengths to remain sober to achieve
healthy and happiness.
Seek out those AA meetings and no this
for yourself as selfish as it may seem but
in the long run it will save your life.
And we all want life. A healthier blessed
way of life addiction free.
You like many of us in recovery had
to learn that no one ever has to be
alone or go thru anything in life by
ourselves. Folks in recovery seek
out support with the same addiction
because we understand each other.
Only a person who has an addiction
and lives a recovery life will better
understand each other.
well, whatever it took and takes. While I was in
rehab it was suggested to my husband, (not an
alcoholic) to remove all the alcohol in the house
upon my return in which he did do.
Since I was new in recovery, this first time
sober using a program of recovery as my
guideline taught to me, I would still be going
thru many changes, mentally, emotionally,
physically, good days, low days, roller coaster
rides of emotions, then not having alcohol
around me so I wouldn't be tempted would
be the best, healthiest way to remain sober
no matter what.
Have you ever searched for AA in your area?
You can call your local Central AA Office and
they can let you know where these meetings
are located and the times available.
You don't have to be ashamed of having a
problem drinking. Addiction to alcohol or
drugs is an epidemic in the world and affects
many many folks and many of these folks
die every single day because of it.
Its a progressive disease and unless something
is done about it then it will continue to destroy
people. We are not bad people. Just sick with
this progressive illness unless it is put to rest.
We feel bad because this addiction keeps us
sick in mind body and soul until we do something
about it and most folks have no idea how to stop
this insanity until someone teaches them how
to live each day with a program of recovery as
a guideline to keep them sober.
No one is gonna want or understand what
you need more so than you. I mean family
many want the best for you, but only you
will need to want to be sober more than
anything. You will need to do this for yourself.
To go to any lengths to remain sober to achieve
healthy and happiness.
Seek out those AA meetings and no this
for yourself as selfish as it may seem but
in the long run it will save your life.
And we all want life. A healthier blessed
way of life addiction free.
You like many of us in recovery had
to learn that no one ever has to be
alone or go thru anything in life by
ourselves. Folks in recovery seek
out support with the same addiction
because we understand each other.
Only a person who has an addiction
and lives a recovery life will better
understand each other.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2017
Posts: 18
Hi freshstart57!
I did get rid of all the booze I could possibly consider (done this before and never opened champagne or red wine or whatever) but I did tell my husband that the bar has come to its (un)natural end. I don't know what I'll do next.
I've been crying for like forever and it's super tempting to have a drink to feel better.
Drinking a ton of herbal tea with lemon and each time I think about going to the store I reread the thread, it helps so much.
I did get rid of all the booze I could possibly consider (done this before and never opened champagne or red wine or whatever) but I did tell my husband that the bar has come to its (un)natural end. I don't know what I'll do next.
I've been crying for like forever and it's super tempting to have a drink to feel better.
Drinking a ton of herbal tea with lemon and each time I think about going to the store I reread the thread, it helps so much.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2017
Posts: 18
Sharon,
what I read about AA didn't help me - or was I too afraid? Or because I'm not religious and the steps list it? Not sure, but I will try reading again. I live in big enough city, there are options.
You are so right about support, I don't think anyone I talked to had an idea of how bad it is, because I function? My husband thinks I'm just too lazy to overcome it, like I can overcome everything, that's right. I mean, it can always get worse, but why wait for it. My mind plays enough games with me as is of now, day 3 still recovering, no thank you, I hope it's the last time I am at sick day #3
But I have to say I have too many bad examples in front of me.
People who had everything and lost everything.
I have to believe it somehow, that I'm going to make it, but it's so hard.
what I read about AA didn't help me - or was I too afraid? Or because I'm not religious and the steps list it? Not sure, but I will try reading again. I live in big enough city, there are options.
You are so right about support, I don't think anyone I talked to had an idea of how bad it is, because I function? My husband thinks I'm just too lazy to overcome it, like I can overcome everything, that's right. I mean, it can always get worse, but why wait for it. My mind plays enough games with me as is of now, day 3 still recovering, no thank you, I hope it's the last time I am at sick day #3
But I have to say I have too many bad examples in front of me.
People who had everything and lost everything.
I have to believe it somehow, that I'm going to make it, but it's so hard.
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It's great to meet you, Sibirskaya. I hope being here will lessen your anxiety about becoming sober. This is the best place ever for encouragement & the friendship of those who care. We understand each other like no one else can. Welcome!
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It's ok to cry. This is truly a miracle, you are defying death through your thoughts and your actions. Your heart and mind are acting together. You are invincible when this happens.
Think that you are not denying yourself. Those times of denying yourself a life with joy and beauty and satisfaction and pride are gone. You are finally giving yourself a chance to live. Grab hold of this chance and make it yours. Hold it in your heart, and let it give you comfort and peace. There is light ahead of you, Sibirskaya. You can do this. Onward!
Think that you are not denying yourself. Those times of denying yourself a life with joy and beauty and satisfaction and pride are gone. You are finally giving yourself a chance to live. Grab hold of this chance and make it yours. Hold it in your heart, and let it give you comfort and peace. There is light ahead of you, Sibirskaya. You can do this. Onward!
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Join Date: Jan 2017
Posts: 18
I have talked to a person who has been through rehab, but his story is so different from mine I'm having a very hard time to relate. Sounded like he started drinking because he was unhappy; for me, I got unhappy when drinking.
I learned one thing though, that talking to someone who has been to this hell is irreplaceable. Even if their experience was so very different from yours; they know and don't judge.
freshstart57,
at this point my survival plans include a night of more than 4 hours of sleep... But as many put it here - and absolutely right - one step at a time, you can only eat an elephant piece by piece, I can do a little piece, as much as I don't like elephants...
I learned one thing though, that talking to someone who has been to this hell is irreplaceable. Even if their experience was so very different from yours; they know and don't judge.
freshstart57,
at this point my survival plans include a night of more than 4 hours of sleep... But as many put it here - and absolutely right - one step at a time, you can only eat an elephant piece by piece, I can do a little piece, as much as I don't like elephants...
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Join Date: Jan 2017
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Breath, just breath, try as you may, its progress over perfection and we are all on a journey. Do not think 15 years of anything is going to just change overnight, it didn't take the pattern to get into the same.
Love, just love the journey away, just as you did into. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Love, just love the journey away, just as you did into. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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Posts: 18
Hi Sharon,
thanks for checking.
I am a tiny bit better today, at least my head is clearer.
I don't feel drunk anymore, just hung over, but nothing extra scary. (Or so I'm saying... I wasn't able to sleep all that well again.)
I did call the counselor that my friend recommended, and I'm having an appointment next week, as it's all about new habits, and this is the part that is the hardest right now. He sounded very reasonable. He has been through addictions himself and found his way out, plus I've heard that he's good at clearing people's heads... Which is what I need.
I'm still feeling really down and guilty though.
thanks for checking.
I am a tiny bit better today, at least my head is clearer.
I don't feel drunk anymore, just hung over, but nothing extra scary. (Or so I'm saying... I wasn't able to sleep all that well again.)
I did call the counselor that my friend recommended, and I'm having an appointment next week, as it's all about new habits, and this is the part that is the hardest right now. He sounded very reasonable. He has been through addictions himself and found his way out, plus I've heard that he's good at clearing people's heads... Which is what I need.
I'm still feeling really down and guilty though.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
It's so good to hear from you today and
am glad to know how many steps you've
taken since yesterday towards getting help
from those outside SR that are very familiar
with addiction and recovery.
It's in the not doing anything to better oneself
that would make one feel guilty or useless.
And you have nothing to feel guilty over
for going to any lengths to get the help
you need at this time in your life.
That to me shows me and others the
courage and willingness you have within
yourself in which you are already accomplishing
to achieve a healthier quality life for
yourself.
It's it comforting to know you have
someone nearby to you that you
can reach out to and call quickly
when the urge to reach for poison
pops up?
Having that easy to reach recovery
tool in your recovery tool box is what
you can use to help you remain sober
each day as you build your strong solid
foundation in recovery to live upon
for many one days sober ahead of you.
Continue to add new recovery tools as
you go along filling it up to always have
them to reach for instead of picking up
alcohol.
Good Work...!!!!
am glad to know how many steps you've
taken since yesterday towards getting help
from those outside SR that are very familiar
with addiction and recovery.
It's in the not doing anything to better oneself
that would make one feel guilty or useless.
And you have nothing to feel guilty over
for going to any lengths to get the help
you need at this time in your life.
That to me shows me and others the
courage and willingness you have within
yourself in which you are already accomplishing
to achieve a healthier quality life for
yourself.
It's it comforting to know you have
someone nearby to you that you
can reach out to and call quickly
when the urge to reach for poison
pops up?
Having that easy to reach recovery
tool in your recovery tool box is what
you can use to help you remain sober
each day as you build your strong solid
foundation in recovery to live upon
for many one days sober ahead of you.
Continue to add new recovery tools as
you go along filling it up to always have
them to reach for instead of picking up
alcohol.
Good Work...!!!!
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