hpdw

Hi friends ,

I'm happy to say I am still sober since my last relapse .

Sadly my brother passed away on 29th Dec so this has been a difficult time ,however I had no desire to drink .

Health wise I am picking up slowly , my gut being the area to suffer following my last binge .

I started my new job on 4th Jan so that also has been a stressor but i,m settling into it not too bad .

Good news with my wife 7 years after her life threatening illness her oncologist doesn't want to see her for 2 years now so that boosted my rather flat mood considerably .Her mood is nearly always good and I keep asking her secret and she just tells me to be positive as much as possible and God will work it all out , I have a gem of a wife .

Thank you all for your kindness .

Maudcat

Good to hear from you, Thomas. Been thinking about you.
Very sorry for your loss.
Very happy about your wife.
Peace.

january161992

wow thomas youre a strong man

i could learn something from you

thomas11

Nice seeing you again Thomas59. Very sorry to hear about your loss. Your wife does sound like a gem, and congratulations on remaining sober after your last slip.

ps. I agree with you on those gut issues, they are a killer!

Anna

I'm very sorry for the loss of your brother. Your wife's good health news is fantastic and I hope you catch some of her optimism. I'm glad you're doing well.

Michael66

Very sorry about your brother. Very happy to hear of your wife's good news and your sobriety through emotional times.

entropy1964

Hi Thomas
I'm so sorry about your brother. But that's great news about your wife. And ya know, she's absolutely right. Its very hard to feel resentment/irritation when feeling grateful/happy.

Glad you popped in.

Hevyn

Glad to have you back, Thomas. I'm sorry for the painful loss of your brother - prayers for you & your family.

Proud of you for staying sober through the bad days. Thanks for sharing the news about your wife - I love her attitude.

Dee74

I'm really sorry for your loss Thomas. It's good to see you back with us though - and great news about your wife

D

Chifan7

Sorry about your brother. Tough times, glad you are hanging in there. Your wife sounds lovely, wonderful news about her remission. Thanks for your post.

hpdw

Thanks for all your kind words . You know ! Ive learned something valuable through all of this and that is that we are much much stronger than we think , its like something kicks in from somewhere .
On top of the passing of my brother my oldest son ended up in jail ,lost his job ,car partner and maybe his house all through alcohol . We are the ones left with the train wreck left behind by having to sort out his affairs with housing people and loads of financial stuff . so yes this has been the most difficult spell I can remember . I believe almost anything can be managed so long as you don't pick up the bottle .

The guilt still bothers me like I passed my alcoholism to him , while clearing his house I found empties everywhere just as I have done after my insane sessions in the past . i am so heart broken for him as i know what he's feeling , the regret ,shame , remorse ,anger ,self loathing the whole works .
I pray for peace for him .

Thanks