Holiday eye opener
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Holiday eye opener
Im 1 month sober today. I'm telling you, I'm so proud of myself for doing this over the holidays. 2 days before christmas, I asked my husband what he thought of having a drink at his familys house for Christmas eve. He of course said nooo don't do it babe, youve done so well. My AV was telling me that my anxiety was going to be high in a warm house full of people, all drinking (in my mind they all were drinking, truthfully, maybe 3 were)and I should just take a few shots. Once I got there, someone had a gleaming bottle of whiskey on the coffee table. My husband was across the room. I could've opened, poured and drank without being caught. Just then I heard my husband tell someone, "no, we quit drinking!" He never had a drinking problem, nor had he even had a beer in over a year. My heart swelled then and I felt powerful again. He took the heat off me having to answer for myself when he knew I was weak. My AV shut right up and I made it. I've already bought sparkling grape juice to toast my daughter with for new years. We are staying home, so I feel safe that I won't have to deal with the anxiety.
I can't stress enough how clear everything has become. If I could describe recovery in one word it would be clarity. While drinking, you just can't see the forest for the trees. Sobriety has brought me the ability to see more than I even knew was there. 2017, here I come.
I can't stress enough how clear everything has become. If I could describe recovery in one word it would be clarity. While drinking, you just can't see the forest for the trees. Sobriety has brought me the ability to see more than I even knew was there. 2017, here I come.
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Good work. Know how tough it can be this time of year. I had my own wistful moment, gazing at open bottles of wine at a friend's holiday gathering. And I am going on 4 years sober. Stay strong. Drinking feels good for a while, but we know that this ends in tears.
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Maybe it is the holiday season, or my 46 year old female hormones, but I just teared up reading your post.
Congratulations on one month, and I am glad you have such a wonderfully supportive husband.
Bring on a sober NYE and fantastic 2017!
Congratulations on one month, and I am glad you have such a wonderfully supportive husband.
Bring on a sober NYE and fantastic 2017!
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