Had a couple drinks...
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Had a couple drinks...
So...I met up with my ex before she left town for a trip..Ended up at a bar.. I had a few(3-4) beers and dinner.. This led me into a tailspin(of course) and I spent Sat/Sun with some Vodka. Hadn't been to a meeting in a few days so, I nursed my hangover yesterday and didn't drink. Forced my ass off the couch at 7am this morning and went to a meeting. Weird thing was the only store on my way home after the meeting was a liquor store and I needed cigs. I went in and felt empowered from the meeting to not buy another bottle of vodka. Got my cigs and left. Going back for another meeting tonight. I do need AA/structure. So, I guess I'm back to day 2.
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Thanks,guys. The weird thing... obviously on friday night after a few beers, I was 'fine'.. Then sat morning ,she left, I drove to my buddys and stopped to get a bottle of vodka. I didn't and won't ever drive drunk again...Then Sun on my way home... I stopped and got another small bottle.. I heard a song the other day, with the lyrics:"I drink because i'm lonely, I'm lonely because I drink". This is not the case with me.. I really don't get lonely.. I think a big part of mine is letting my ex back in my life,without knowing where we stand..the unknown..the fear. These are my "excuses" to drink.
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Yep...Not sure why I even pulled into the parking lot(s). Boredom? Missed a couple meetings by hanging with the ex(not blaming her)?...alcoholic? (YEP!!).
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