lovespell

I am alone. That means I am alone with all the thoughts in my head and just me. My kids aren't here. My friends were coming around to make sure I was OK after my "episode/accident" but I told them not to worry tonight. The fact is I'm petrified. The thought of house arrest and 2 DUI's was enough to send me whirling into the abyss and now a third. I'm so scared that this will be irreparable. I am afraid of what I have done to my kids and their future and mine. Yes I should be thankful to be alive but when I'm alone I spin everything around and around. I keep thinking of my kids if I go to jail and It is making me sick. Bonus. I can't drive my car anywhere. I wasn't allowed to drive or drink anyways as part of my probation. I should know my charges soon and can go from there. What can I do to stop this dismal thinking? I really wish there was a psych line or something. I have to wait until Saturday to see my addiction counselor.

Anna

Hi, I'm sure this is a difficult time for you. Do you have a lawyer or someone who can give you advice about what is likely to happen? Do you have someone to look after your children if you go to jail? I think if you had more information about the charges you would probably feel less lost. I'm glad you are seeing a counsellor on Saturday. Hopefully she can give you some advice on what to do.

Hevyn

Hi lovespell - I'm really glad you posted. I think it helps ease our anxiety a bit.

I've been through this & I know how horrible you're feeling. It was so difficult to sleep. I hope you find out what you're facing soon - not knowing is so hard. I hope you'll keep posting. We care about you.

Berrybean

Maybe check out an AA meeting in the meantime. Listening to people talk about how they got, and stay, recovered from where I was really gave me strength and hope in early sobriety.