Hi everyone - I'm back and just need a little support
Hi everyone - I'm back and just need a little support
I haven't posted on here in a long time, although I used to be on all the time a few years ago. I will have 3 years sober on November 18.
My mom passed away two weeks ago, and while I'm not feeling a strong urge to drink at the moment, I do feel like I need some support. She was ill for a long time, and I thought I had prepared myself pretty well for this happening, but it's so much harder than I imagined. I don't think I've stopped crying once in the past five days or so.
My mom was a recovered alcoholic and was sober more than nine years when she died. Her death had nothing to do with alcohol, which is a miracle considering how many times it could have taken her in the past. I'm so proud of her. I just miss her so much - she was always there to listen to me and encourage me, even when she was feeling terrible herself. I can't believe she's gone.
My mom passed away two weeks ago, and while I'm not feeling a strong urge to drink at the moment, I do feel like I need some support. She was ill for a long time, and I thought I had prepared myself pretty well for this happening, but it's so much harder than I imagined. I don't think I've stopped crying once in the past five days or so.
My mom was a recovered alcoholic and was sober more than nine years when she died. Her death had nothing to do with alcohol, which is a miracle considering how many times it could have taken her in the past. I'm so proud of her. I just miss her so much - she was always there to listen to me and encourage me, even when she was feeling terrible herself. I can't believe she's gone.
When my parents passed, I knew they next breathed in Heaven. . . with my savior friend and family.
I wonder if newcomers there may have a 'birthday party', beginning a most joyous eternal life.
I look forward to my own blessed passing.
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I wonder if newcomers there may have a 'birthday party', beginning a most joyous eternal life.
I look forward to my own blessed passing.
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I'm so sorry for your devastating loss. I'm glad that you are not drinking, despite your intense grief. Maintaining your sobriety is a beautiful way to honor your beautiful mom.
Loss of a loved one - especially one so deeply close to us - is a huge, grievous, gut-punch of a thing.
I'm so glad you reached out for support. That shows wisdom and depth in your sobriety.
Grief is a thing that takes time and some days are better than others.
Feeling the loss, and really allowing it to hit you as well as to celebrate all that she meant to you, all the memories, all the sorrows and the joys; this is one of the gifts of sobriety. You need not blot it out or deny yourself the real depth of your love and your loss. In sobriety, you get the blessing of this experience with full presence and you honor her with your full awareness and being there.....
It's going to be OK. It won't be easy, but it's going to be OK.
We're glad you're here.
I'm so glad you reached out for support. That shows wisdom and depth in your sobriety.
Grief is a thing that takes time and some days are better than others.
Feeling the loss, and really allowing it to hit you as well as to celebrate all that she meant to you, all the memories, all the sorrows and the joys; this is one of the gifts of sobriety. You need not blot it out or deny yourself the real depth of your love and your loss. In sobriety, you get the blessing of this experience with full presence and you honor her with your full awareness and being there.....
It's going to be OK. It won't be easy, but it's going to be OK.
We're glad you're here.
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