MovingForward1

The vomiting has started. Just throwing up to get the next drink in. Why am I so stupid? This is awful and only gets worse.

MovingForward1

So tired of this. Wish it would kick me in the head. Wish I could 'get it'.

SoberLifeForMe

How about some water instead? You're not keeping the alcohol down, anyway, so why not stick with water? Dump the rest of the alcohol down the drain.

carlingford

you can do it MF1 get some water into you like soberlife above says, we're all with you here on SR

entropy1964

Oh Moving I had hoped you would have gone to the hospital after your ' hospital or death'thread a couple of weeks ago.

Unfortunately the only one that can stop this is you. I hope you choose to go to the ER.

tomsteve

im with frick here.

I truly hope yer done with the Russian roulette and get the help you deserve and not allow the excuses to not get help control you.

Venecia

Please, please, please go to an emergency room so you can get into an in-patient program.

MrPL

Moving - it's time. Dump the alcohol, go to hospital if you have to, but look deep inside yourself and decide to stop this for good.

You can do this.

P

SoberLifeForMe

MF1, it's been an hour and a half since you posted. How are you doing? I hope you're seeking medical assistance or, at minimum, someone is with you.

AdelineRose

I have found journaling in the worst moments works wonders for giving yourself a reality check the next time you are thinking about starting this sick cycle again. I would always tell myself "Oh it wasn't so bad..." until I couldn't say that anymore because I had pages and pages and pages about how just damn back it actually is.

Something needs to happen, there are two ways this can go- please seek help, it will only continue to escalate until it is too late and you deserve better than that. You deserve to be happy, wake up in the morning feeling great, to go to bed at night knowing you won't have any regrets in the morning.

Recovery has allowed me to love and respect myself finally..please don't rob yourself of that.

MovingForward1

Trying to make the decision to keep going or succumb to the withdrawal I know is coming. This is brutal and I keep doing it.

Irishish

Please go to the hospital and let them help. You don't have to do this alone.

SoberLeigh

Dear MovingForward, make this day that you make that life-saving and life-changing first step. Call a friend, a taxi, an ambulance and get to the ER; they can coordinate a medically-supervised detox to make the withdrawals less painful and less dangerous.

Trust us when we say there is an exponentially better way to live; detox is the first step. Once you have completed that step, there are many choices for support to help you maintain your sobriety and find the true reward of recovery.

SR is here for you 24/7/365, MovingForward. Take that first step; you can do this.

Winslow

Oh hon I really wish you would just go get some help these threads have been so heartbreaking to read,only cuz I've been there too many times, continuing to drink isn't helping anymore I've been there too, just bite the bullet and go please

SoberLeigh

How are you, MovingForward?

I am hoping that you are receiving treatment.

D122y

Mf1,

You are not stupid. You are addicted.

You need a dr. To get through the detox.

Then the physical and mental healing begin.

It will likely take several weeks to pull out of the deepest depth of the addiction.

Then a few months to get used to normal.

It is worth it. Sobriety is how we are designed to live.

Boozing is a learned behavior. It can be unlearned.

Thanks.

SoberLeigh

How are you, MovingForward?

Thinking of you.

MovingForward1

I'm sober, feeling better ending day 3. I'm scared of my Plan, the future. I'm working on it though. Thanks so much for checking in, it means a lot.

Dee74

thanks for the update MF

D

SoberLeigh

Thanks, MovingForward, for checking in .

Great job on three sober days.