Wanna take my life back!!!
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Wanna take my life back!!!
I am an addict. My drug of choice is alcohol. I've been drinking heavily since I was 17, now I'm 41. It seems my life has no direction. I surely need the help and support I can get from this group. Thanks. Vincent
welcome, Vincent!
about 13 when i took my 1st drink, i sobered up at 36. alcohol had became my master- my life was like the movie groundhog day- pass in the morning after full of remorse and guilt and wondering what i had done and said.
ive been sober a while now. still have mornings i have to think about what i did the night before, but now its because im old(er) and have CRS!!!!
keep posting!!! lots of great support, but we cant help without knowing whats going on with ya.
about 13 when i took my 1st drink, i sobered up at 36. alcohol had became my master- my life was like the movie groundhog day- pass in the morning after full of remorse and guilt and wondering what i had done and said.
ive been sober a while now. still have mornings i have to think about what i did the night before, but now its because im old(er) and have CRS!!!!
keep posting!!! lots of great support, but we cant help without knowing whats going on with ya.
Welcome! If you want your life back, then take it back. I stayed there for a long time. It finally became apparent, that I could not hold onto my life and a beer at the same time. I just put one foot in front of the other and took the journey. If I look back now or at my life now I really am amazed. It is nothing huge I did. Just a series of positive steps and a misstep on occasion. Take it back.
I DID take my life back. Sure, it wasn't easy to get myself out from that swirling vortex that kept sucking me back in each time I thought I was getting somewhere with cutting down. But once I'd made that decision that I NEEDED to cut it out completely, and let people help me (from here at SR and a little late, at AA) get free of it, then things started, slowly but surely, getting better and better. In every way.
I needed to recognise the two big parts of it I was dealing with (which I never had before). Not just my alcoholic DRINKING. But also my alcoholic THINKING. What I hasn't realised all those years is that my mindset and perspective on most things was at least a little faulty. If i was going to get sober, and stay that way in a comfortable and sane fashion then I needed to learn how to live life on life's terms, start being more accepting of the times that things don't go my way, etc. That, for me, was what recovery was about. It took me a longer, and much more pain in sobriety, to figure this out than I'd have liked. Maybe I needed to be in that much pain to find the willingness to change though. Who knows.
Anyway. This is turning into a ramble, so I'll shush now.
Wishing you all the best for your recovery. BB
Welcome to SR Vinno! I am close to your age and have just about ten months sober now. It took me a while to finally get sobriety to stick, and life is 100% better. You should join the October 2016 support thread, you will have others who have quit this month. Also, check in each day on the 24 hour Recovery Comnections thread.
Lots of support on this site, glad you are here!
Lots of support on this site, glad you are here!
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Join Date: Oct 2016
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Vinno- I'm ready to take mine back as well. I started drinking heavily about 6 years ago with a long 1.5 year break to have a baby and breastfeed. I've been back on the vodka for about 3 years now. I get so down knowing I took that long of a break and now I'm back to square 1. Let's do this!!! I plan on using this site to be my crutch. I have been reading books and threads on this site all day. The challenge will come at 5pm today. :sigh:
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