914born

It's been too long since I've posted on anything on here. Last time I posted I was 8 months pregnant struggling to stay cocaine free. Scared that if I picked up they would take my baby at the hospital. Thankfully I was able to stay clean and have a beautiful drug free daughter, that's now 15 months pouring crackers on the floor as I type this. Lol. Right after I had my baby couple days later I was right back to sniffing cocaine and dringing. I don't know what to do its like I live for this ****. I say I want help, I say I wanna stop, but obviously I'm not ready. I don't know what's wrong with me?

january161992

looks like there are about 20 AA meetings/ week in your town

also a few NA

really helped me!

God bless

SoberLeigh

I am so glad that you have checked in, 914born and am so very happy to hear that your baby was born healthy and non-addicted. I have often thought of you and your baby.

I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling. Have you thought of joining an SR Class? I'll post a link in a minute.

SoberLeigh

Here is the link, 914born:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-3-a.html

SoberLeigh

This is another great thread - a great place to make a daily commitment to sobriety:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-160-a.html

I am so glad that you are back, 914.

914born

Thanks I was happy when I seen that u replied, a familiar name thanks ,for watching out for me . I don't know about any SR class I just come here to vent and read other pills post I never got into everything else. I would love to check it out though.

914born

SR sent me a happy Birthday email and I was shocked and excited all in one. So I'm back

PurpleKnight

Great to hear from you 914born, and congrats on your daughter!!

teatreeoil007

Good job staying clean and sober during your pregnancy, hon. That is a big deal and you should be proud. Our children start to motivate us from the womb, do they not? My kids are grown now and mid life comes with its own set of newer issues, but my kids still motivate me to be the best person I can be. I hope I raised them right and I think I mostly did, but no one is perfect. You've proven you CAN do this. Maybe you just need some fresh inspiration?

Dee74

Welcome back 914born
I'm glad you were able to stay clean for your daughter. She deserves a clean mom too - I'm glad you're back

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Julia8

glad you are here!

Hevyn

You're back now 914 - that's what counts. It's so good to see you.

Delilah1

Welcome back! It is great that you stayed sober and drug free during pregnancy. I have three kids and I was sober during pregnancies and nursing, but kept going back to drinking. I am just about 8 months sober and I have been so much more present for my kids and at work.

Logging on here and reading daily has been my greatest support system. Try checking in each day, and post before you decide to use or drink. It really does help.

Join the August class, check in daily on the 24 hour thread. You can do this!!!

MythOfSisyphus

Welcome back!