Stewy84

Thank you to each and every one of you for your advice.

I'm really not in a good place mentally and getting into some hardcore rumination about this situation which needs to stop so I can find peace.

It must seem like all I do is moan on this forum but all in all, I have an awful lot to be grateful for in my life including an amazing family and beautiful daughter. I also have the good people on SR who have really helped me over the last 18 months sober.

It's the pain of knowing I screwed up , my ex girlfriend is in a bad way herself but isn't reaching out and the end outcome is both parties are very unhappy and have a joint owned house to sort out at the end of it all.

I don't make life easy for myself !

Soberwolf

We are always here for you bud

Dee74

Hey Stewy

for a long time my personal relationships were like my drinking...I tried ridiculously hard to make things work, often way past the point of reason. I didn't invite or want change because I feared the new might be worse than the old, even tho the old was obviously harmful to me.

I wonder if there's not a little of that here?

Doesn;t really matter what I think anyway - the one thing you can do is let this drive you back to drink, ok?

Whatever you do, whatever you decide, don't go there ok?

You've come a long way - don't fall backwards, man.

D

Stewy84

Thanks Dee

I'm not gonna even entertain drink. I've got to face the situation head on without a doubt. It's horrible drifting away from someone like this, she was such a sweet girl for a long time with me. I must of hurt her really bad for her to not want to come back

trachemys

Stewy, good to see you. You're succeeding, buddy.