emptycan

I've posted here before but I'm really in and out on the idea of being sober. For the longest time I had the system trying to force it on me but now it's my choice. When I think about the benefits, I might just have to. My environment is ****** and I can't move out mainly because I drink what could be going to rent. Work is hard to tolerate or even keep because I'm hungover all the time. I can't even leave the house when I want because I don't drive drunk. And then when I do get out I'm always in a rush to get home and drink because I feel like ****. Whatever I used to enjoy about drinking is pretty much gone, you can't live this life happily and drive, unless you're fine with taking the bus everywhere(and I'm not). But I refuse to give away my freedom again so I spend my days drinking safely, alone. Putting this **** in my body basically makes me a prisoner in my own home.

At this point, everything I've limited myself to, I could probably do happily sober. And I could go get Taco Bell anytime I want.

Just airing thoughts.....

OldTomato

So, the question is, are you ready to get better?

nova84

Hi emptycan. Alcohol definitely kept me a prisoner...I would also opt to stay at home and drink rather than chose sobriety and exploring the world around me. I didn't have a rock bottom...I just got very very bored and fed up with the significant role alcohol was playing in my thoughts and my life. I just wanted to erase it from my life. Why not give it a try for 30 days then see how you feel? x

Hawkeye13

Sounds like you might be ready to quit for good.
Imagine having money to do things, and to be free
to go where you want when you want.

Mountainmanbob

True, the freedom attained from saying goodbye to the liquid devil
is an amazing thing for the drunk.

Mountainmanbob

FreeOwl

I drank for decades after I couldn't afford it anymore....

SO glad I finally chose sobriety instead.

There's a lot of things I can afford these days.

least

You can be free of it if you want it bad enough. Do you want to be sober more than you want to drink? If so, then you'll be sober.

ScottFromWI

Sounds to like you know exactly what the problem is now. Are you willing to change to solve it? There's a whole network of support and recovery waiting for you here and locally of you are ready. It's simply a choice you can make. It won't be "easy" but you can be sober if you want to.

Delilah1

Hi Emptycan,

Sounds like you are ready to stop drinking. There is lots of support on this site, spend some time reading and posting. Join the July class. Start today by signing get in the 24 hours club that you will not drink today.

You can do this, and it is worth it.

esinger

The initial struggle of getting sober and pushing through the desire to sedate yourself is definitely worth the freedom you will obtain. You can go and do what you want, where you want, anytime you want. The prison you are in was created by you and you have the power to break free if your desire is great enough.
Good Luck!

thomas11

I believe you will find being sober liberating. You no longer have to be in self imposed alcohol jail. You can go anywhere you want at anytime you want. Its pretty neat.