Feel bad about drunken actions
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Feel bad about drunken actions
I'm usually a very nice and sweet person, but when drinking sometimes the dumbest thing will make me angry. That happened Saturday. I have apologized 100 times and my friend is barely talking to me. I don't blame him at all. I was a horrible person.
We all know the drill, I also sent drunken messages to 2 friends. They probably think I'm totally nuts. I'm too scared to read to see what all I actually wrote.
Basically I feel like a total loser, even though I know I'm not. I have had many regrets while drinking, but this time it's different. I actually really failed tremendously as a friend when he needed someone desperately. I don't really want to go into it.
I'm going to use this as a live and learn experience. I never want to hurt someone I care about again. Not because alcohol has clouded my mind and made me act stupid.
I'm on day 2 sober. Withdrawals have been mild, but very annoying. Constant sick to my stomach feeling, anxious and very tired. Of course I didn't sleep worth a flip last night and had mild sweats.
I'm feeling really down tonight, but just try to look forward to more and more sober days so these feelings will lessen and eventually go away for the most part.
We all know the drill, I also sent drunken messages to 2 friends. They probably think I'm totally nuts. I'm too scared to read to see what all I actually wrote.
Basically I feel like a total loser, even though I know I'm not. I have had many regrets while drinking, but this time it's different. I actually really failed tremendously as a friend when he needed someone desperately. I don't really want to go into it.
I'm going to use this as a live and learn experience. I never want to hurt someone I care about again. Not because alcohol has clouded my mind and made me act stupid.
I'm on day 2 sober. Withdrawals have been mild, but very annoying. Constant sick to my stomach feeling, anxious and very tired. Of course I didn't sleep worth a flip last night and had mild sweats.
I'm feeling really down tonight, but just try to look forward to more and more sober days so these feelings will lessen and eventually go away for the most part.
Hi Sinderos
the only real cure for that is time and not doing drunken things again, I think.
The more good things I did in recovery the more I remember that I am a good guy and I'm much more than my drunken actions would suggest.
I consider I have a personal responsibility not to drink alcohol, much less let myself get drunk again, and thats worked for me for nearly a decade now
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the only real cure for that is time and not doing drunken things again, I think.
The more good things I did in recovery the more I remember that I am a good guy and I'm much more than my drunken actions would suggest.
I consider I have a personal responsibility not to drink alcohol, much less let myself get drunk again, and thats worked for me for nearly a decade now
D
Shame, guilt and remorse weighed me down for a very long time.
Sobriety gives me an opportunity to make amends to some. Most importantly, I found by staying sober I can start to forgive myself, change and contribute something positive to those with whom I interact in this world.
Very refreshing.
Sobriety gives me an opportunity to make amends to some. Most importantly, I found by staying sober I can start to forgive myself, change and contribute something positive to those with whom I interact in this world.
Very refreshing.
Shame/guilt is such a big part of alcoholism, and we've all done things we wish we could erase. But, it doesn't work that way. The best thing you can do is to keep working on your recovery. I don't know what will happen with your friends, but staying sober is the way to go.
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I feel for you, Sinderos. I have been on and off that rollercoaster for 15 years. I once factory reset my phone because I couldn't bear to see what I had texted, who I had called. I know what you mean about generally being a nice and sweet person, but alcohol is a game changer. I never agreed with the adage that alcohol let's the truth come out. Heavy alcohol consumption makes me a delusional liar. I am the most gorgeous, important, and rich person when I am drunk.
In reality, I am a pretty average looking, of average importance, and average financial standing girl from the Midwest lololol
In reality, I am a pretty average looking, of average importance, and average financial standing girl from the Midwest lololol
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I can relate to you. When I drank I would blackout and gossip incessantly. I of course never remembered what I said and to whom I said it to. This got me into a lot of trouble and caused a lot of anxiety in my life. I caused two people to lose their jobs and created quite an unflattering reputation for myself.
Staying sober is the greatest apology we can make. We cannot go back in time and we cannot make people forgive us. But we CAN change the way we present ourselves to others and stay sober to ensure we never become the nasty drunks we used to be.
Staying sober is the greatest apology we can make. We cannot go back in time and we cannot make people forgive us. But we CAN change the way we present ourselves to others and stay sober to ensure we never become the nasty drunks we used to be.
I think the majority of us on SR have said/written/done things we regret while drinking. Sometimes time is what we need for others to be ready to forgive us.
Good job on two days, keep it going!!
Good job on two days, keep it going!!
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