ICanDoBetter

I picked up a bottle of wine on the way home, to make sure we had 'enough' alcohol during the snowstorm. I drank not only that but at least four beers . I went to sleep that evening both disgusted with myself for drinking so much yet again but also not really caring.. Telling myself I would quit 'tomorrow'.

Fifty nights ago I didn't truly believe i would quit. I gave myself every bs excuse under the sun to try to make myself believe that I didn't really have a problem, that it wasn't that bad, that eventually I would get it under control, that it wasn't REALLY effecting my family or career or physical and mental well being.

Fifty nights ago I didn't believe I had taken my last drink.

Then 49 mornings ago I woke up and believed that I had.

least

Congrats on fifty days sober! It gets better too.

Anna

I'm glad to hear you're doing so well.

soberclover

I'm so glad my nights aren't consumed with that life anymore

FLCamper

That's great. You sound pleased with yourself as you should be!

FLCamper

Was there anything in particular that helped you?

ICanDoBetter

I had thought about coming back here for a while. That morning I mentally knew something had to change. I confided in a friend and logged in here. I employed the "don't think just go" philosophy and posted that I was going to post here for 28 days ... And that was a big commitment and I wanted to hold myself to it. By about ten days in I realized that alcohol doesn't serve me well... Period. And that I was going to continue one day at a time beyond the 28 days.

Dee74

way to go

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Dharma33

Great to hear!!!!

Delilah1

Congrats on 50 days!!!

MythOfSisyphus

Way to go, ICDB!

Soberwolf

Massive congratulations on your 50th day sober xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Fabela

Congratulations! Well done!