Stiltskin

Even though I:-

Spent all my money.
Lost my wallet, phone and coat.
Did a load of sh*t I regret and feel terrible about.
Didn't see my girlfriend.
Have had horrible withdrawal for the past four days (and counting) including; smelly sweats, upset stomach, squits, shakes, anxiety, depression, dread....and now 'just' feel like I have the flu...

It has made me realise that I AM AN ALCOHOLIC and I need to STOP DRINKING FOREVER.....

In itself this makes me really happy. You need to understand a problem before you can beging to tackle it.

First AA meeting on Friday.....I feel unbelievably excited about the future and what I'll be able to achieve when I'm functioning at more than 20%...

Thanks to everyone who's been in touch so far.

Dee74

may this be your turning point stiltskin

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Wastinglife

Your 5 day binge sounds remarkably familiar to me. Losing my wallet/spending all my money is usually the only way my binges ended. the worst for me though was the 3 days of recovery locked away in my apartment, an anxiety ridden mess. Stick close to this forum as it was always a lifeline for me in those dark times.

Stiltskin

Wastinglife, do you speak as a reformed man??

least

I hope you can be successful at getting sober this time.

SoberLife90

Goodluck on your journey of recovery!

Soberwolf

Have you got a plan moving forward bud

48heath

Can you get to a meeting before Friday?

Friday is a long way away for an Alcoholic.

Justin00

So many times I have spent loads of money while blackout drunk, it makes me feel angry about myself, but when I think about the future, how much I can save without drinking that it's nothing compared with the money lost.

Stiltskin

I only binge drink at the weekends and sometimes Mon, Tue, (Wed)....I often go 1 - 2 weeks without thinking about it but as soon as I start BOOM. It's a destructive force in my life.

I will be fine this week and am excited about the meeting on Fri eve.

Thanks so much for your concern

RegretFree

Been there. Done that. All 5 of 'em.

Good luck!

Leezer

I shiver when I think of Thursdays where I literally would only have less than a dollar in my checking account and not being able to drink because of it (and I make "good" money, by most peoples' standards).

If I didn't have money in funds/etc that I could not access without major penalties I am sure I would have nothing today. Everything I had I spent, and if it wasn't on alcohol it was on bad food, etc to recover from the effects of it.

I promise you this, if you can keep it up, you will be AMAZED how it feels to be in control of not only your drinking, but also your finances and everything else you regret while binging. And I was a binge drinker too. But now that I am older, I found my binges lasted longer and longer. The disease DOES progress. Proud of you. Keep it up.
Lee

SoberinSyracuse

I totally believe that good things can come out of the seemingly worst situations. If this bender gives you the impetus to get sober and stay sober, then you'll look on it as the greatest blessing of your life.

That's how I see my DUI from last October! A personal turning point!

You're gonna love a life free of the chaos and embarrassment these binges are causing you! Something to look forward to, for sure!