84 days no drinkee drink ;)
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84 days no drinkee drink ;)
A new world record for chr. What's even more amazing is that I've got out of bed before 8 am 4 days in a row!
It's annoying but I still think about drinking from time to time. Same old story 'well maybe in a few months." A lot of relapses are planed well in advance. I'm strong enough not to drink today. Really wished that "maybe it will be ok in the future would stop." I'm going to my sponsors ranch to shoot wild hogs and work the steps this weekend. Maybe I can get some of the junk out of my head. This whole drinking thing is such a bother. It was always easy to pickup now I have to work to keep from picking up. Nothing of value is ever easy.
It's annoying but I still think about drinking from time to time. Same old story 'well maybe in a few months." A lot of relapses are planed well in advance. I'm strong enough not to drink today. Really wished that "maybe it will be ok in the future would stop." I'm going to my sponsors ranch to shoot wild hogs and work the steps this weekend. Maybe I can get some of the junk out of my head. This whole drinking thing is such a bother. It was always easy to pickup now I have to work to keep from picking up. Nothing of value is ever easy.
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Congratulations on 84 days, chr; well done!!!!!
Those thoughts will diminish in time; try to keep the positives of sobriety and recovery in mind.
Have you ever tried a sobriety gratitude list?
Those thoughts will diminish in time; try to keep the positives of sobriety and recovery in mind.
Have you ever tried a sobriety gratitude list?
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Congratulations on your recovery, great job!
I wonder if you've made other changes in your life besides stopping drinking. It could be that getting involved with new people or activities could help to diminish the drinking thoughts.
I wonder if you've made other changes in your life besides stopping drinking. It could be that getting involved with new people or activities could help to diminish the drinking thoughts.
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Congrats on 84 days chrc 
I'd be a liar if I said I stopped thinking about booze right away - I didn't. But what did happen was the imperative, the urgency, the need - was gone. It was just thoughts now and even they faded in time.
Keep moving fwd
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I'd be a liar if I said I stopped thinking about booze right away - I didn't. But what did happen was the imperative, the urgency, the need - was gone. It was just thoughts now and even they faded in time.
Keep moving fwd
D
The thoughts of drinking will fade with more sober time. It will get better. Member
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I just woke up. For the first time I can remember I dreamed about drinking. I was in kinda a bar and had a Coors is a 10 oz glass. I took one drink which was about 1/2 the glass. I never drank a lot of Coors but it was cold and tasted good. I realized it was beer and thought for a second. I'm not suppose to drink so I poured in down a sink which was conveniently right there.
The second dream I'm about to go into a bar but in a secondary room. I have or maybe order a glass of beer (10 oz glass with Coors). It tastes good. I think "I've already drank some so why not drink more". It gets muddled around then but I was thinking This would be a one out and no one would know. Maybe I thought something about all the days sober would go away and starting over. Then I woke up...that was 20 minutes ago.
The only place I remember a 10 oz glass is a college bar I went to over 25 years ago. Haven't been back. I liked the bar. The bar in the dream is very non-discript.
Bizarre and it hasn't happened since I quit drinking 85 days ago. Amateur dream interpretation anyone?
The second dream I'm about to go into a bar but in a secondary room. I have or maybe order a glass of beer (10 oz glass with Coors). It tastes good. I think "I've already drank some so why not drink more". It gets muddled around then but I was thinking This would be a one out and no one would know. Maybe I thought something about all the days sober would go away and starting over. Then I woke up...that was 20 minutes ago.
The only place I remember a 10 oz glass is a college bar I went to over 25 years ago. Haven't been back. I liked the bar. The bar in the dream is very non-discript.
Bizarre and it hasn't happened since I quit drinking 85 days ago. Amateur dream interpretation anyone?
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Thanks everyone.
Anna, not enough. I am a lot more active but that's not saying much. I didn't work before I quit drinking. I think I was around 1 year unemployed. I have a little money saved so not working isn't a big problem for 5 or 10 years.
I started working with my brothers company but really haven't put out enough effort. He hasn't paid me for around 1 month of part time work. Then again I haven't filled out the proper paper word and I do the books.
Today I will and learn how to process pay checks. Maybe getting paid will motivate to work more. I'm looking forward to court ordered community service. Busy this weekend but probably next. I can choose where I work. I'm think VFW- I get alone well with soldiers. 6 years contracting in Iraq. They serve booze but I'll only work there once if it becomes a temptation. The there's Habit for Humanity. Lots of choices.
Anna- thanks for the observation. I need to hear it again and again until I fill my plate.
Anna, not enough. I am a lot more active but that's not saying much. I didn't work before I quit drinking. I think I was around 1 year unemployed. I have a little money saved so not working isn't a big problem for 5 or 10 years.
I started working with my brothers company but really haven't put out enough effort. He hasn't paid me for around 1 month of part time work. Then again I haven't filled out the proper paper word and I do the books.
Today I will and learn how to process pay checks. Maybe getting paid will motivate to work more. I'm looking forward to court ordered community service. Busy this weekend but probably next. I can choose where I work. I'm think VFW- I get alone well with soldiers. 6 years contracting in Iraq. They serve booze but I'll only work there once if it becomes a temptation. The there's Habit for Humanity. Lots of choices. Anna- thanks for the observation. I need to hear it again and again until I fill my plate.
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Congrats on the 85 days. Awesome.
Re: staying quit. When I had those urges I would then think "Alcohol is a poison that damaged me physically, mentally, and emotionally, But has zero benefits."
Why would I ever drink a drop of that nasty stuff ever again? It doesn't even taste good!
Never could come up with a good reason. Not even a bad reason. Just stupid excuses.
Re: staying quit. When I had those urges I would then think "Alcohol is a poison that damaged me physically, mentally, and emotionally, But has zero benefits."
Why would I ever drink a drop of that nasty stuff ever again? It doesn't even taste good!
Never could come up with a good reason. Not even a bad reason. Just stupid excuses.
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