8 Months........Pinching myself....
8 Months........Pinching myself....
I cannot believe I am still sober after 8 months. I truly believed I was incapable of staying sober. I thought I was defective and that it was just a matter of time before I died from this disease. I tried so many times and I kept slipping. Hospitals, suicide attempts, mental wards, lost jobs. My life was in shambles.
8 months ago, at age 33, I was covered in bruises, bleeding to death on my couch (internal hemmhorage) when my old AA sponsor called me and told me she was afraid I was going to die and came and drove me to the ER. Something in me clicked and I wanted to live again.
In 8 months I have gone to detox, to rehab, to sober living, got a full time job in my career field, moved out of sober living into a cute apartment with a sober roomie, completed steps 1-3 in AA (working on my 4th) and have forged a relationship with a God of my understanding.
In 8 months I've laughed, cried, felt suicidal, felt terrified, felt peaceful, been anxious, been content, kicked walls and screamed in frustration, laughed until I wet my pants, loved and been loved. And...I did it all and experienced it all sober.
I'm amazed and bewildered at the same time. I'm pinching myself...is this really my life? Yes it is!
Some days are easy and I skip along life's path. Some days are hard and I don my raincoat, pull on my hood, and head against the wind...I trudge the road to happy destiny.
I look back at how far I have come and then I look ahead...and keep going!
Thank you all for sharing this journey with me.
8 months ago, at age 33, I was covered in bruises, bleeding to death on my couch (internal hemmhorage) when my old AA sponsor called me and told me she was afraid I was going to die and came and drove me to the ER. Something in me clicked and I wanted to live again.
In 8 months I have gone to detox, to rehab, to sober living, got a full time job in my career field, moved out of sober living into a cute apartment with a sober roomie, completed steps 1-3 in AA (working on my 4th) and have forged a relationship with a God of my understanding.
In 8 months I've laughed, cried, felt suicidal, felt terrified, felt peaceful, been anxious, been content, kicked walls and screamed in frustration, laughed until I wet my pants, loved and been loved. And...I did it all and experienced it all sober.
I'm amazed and bewildered at the same time. I'm pinching myself...is this really my life? Yes it is!
Some days are easy and I skip along life's path. Some days are hard and I don my raincoat, pull on my hood, and head against the wind...I trudge the road to happy destiny.
I look back at how far I have come and then I look ahead...and keep going!
Thank you all for sharing this journey with me.
Congratulations, Bunny! You've really chalked up some amazing accomplishments.
Thank you for sharing your story here. You are an inspiration to fellow journeyers, no matter where they are on this path we share.
Thank you for sharing your story here. You are an inspiration to fellow journeyers, no matter where they are on this path we share.
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