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My work day today was great. My boss seems happy with me. I got a lot accomplished and all I want to stop for on the way home is a burger (I was hardly eating before).

Reading the "what normal drinkers don't do" was a real - aha! I'm not just a heavy drinker going through a difficult time. I'm a full blown alcoholic. A master of hiding it, constant fear of being discovered, and creative about going about it. I just can't believe how much of the last year I lost to this.
I'm not craving any booze today. But I keep thinking forward to - what about my vacation? My wedding? Really dumb but I'm angry at myself for not being capable of being a "normal drinker" ... But when you haven't sipped a drink in months except the drink in your hand in front of people (not the drink in your purse you're chugging in the bathroom) you know there's no way to get back to being a "normal drinker"