I'm broken
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Join Date: May 2015
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I'm broken
I'm so lost. I've wasted my resources, they're tired of hearing about my problems. I don't blame them....I'm sick of it, too. I've drank away the majority of my adult life. I think about every major event that's occurred in my life and I can tell you what I was drinking at the time....my problem has become more than my own problem. My significant other, whom I have 2 children with, is an addict as well. In the past 6 months, he has become an entirely different person. He degrades me, talks negatively about me and to me. He says my drinking is "our" issue. However, when it comes down to it, he is my ultimate enabler. We have different demons, but he had expressed that my drinking is the number one issue. So, while I attempt recovery, I am coddled until he wants his next fix, and before you know it, he is picking me up whiskey so he can venture out and do whatever he pleases. Then I am left alone with my children, catching a minimal buzz, enough in his mind to pacify things...until the next day. Then he belittles me, calls me a drunk, tells me he doesn't want to be with me. And the cycle continues. The guilt that I have about my drinking is enormous. The degradation that I face from him trumps everything I feel. I drink because of him. Or so I hope. I have no where to turn at this point. I have plenty of friends, but I'm cognizant enough to realize that I can't come to them with my problems anymore. I just need a safe place to vent. I love this group because of that. Just as an afterthought, there is no doubt that I have a problem with alcohol. I might even be bold enough to announce that I know I am an alcoholic. I just need some ******* support.
We are here for you. I for one couldnt imagine quitting drinking without the support of my wife. Understand how strong you are to recognize a problem and seek out help and a solution. You will have to make some pretty hard decisions, but know that you have a bunch of people here to support you. Good luck and keep us updated.
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Join Date: Jan 2016
Location: Columbia, Maryland
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I'm an alcoholic and an addict. I think that you need to find a way to leave him. You can't change him. You can only change yourself. I would check out a local social work or mental health/addiction agency in your community to find out how you can get help. You are not alone.
Hi lizardbeth
I'm sorry for what brings you here, but this is a great safe place for support and understanding.
As long as your current situation is not dangerous, I really think you need to focus on your recovery for now - get sober, stay that way, and then you can look at the rest of your life?
D
I'm sorry for what brings you here, but this is a great safe place for support and understanding.
As long as your current situation is not dangerous, I really think you need to focus on your recovery for now - get sober, stay that way, and then you can look at the rest of your life?
D
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: UK, South Coast
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Sounds like ur having a tough time, the main question is, do u want to get sober????
If the answer is yes, do u feel u can do it whilst in a relationship with another addict. I'm not sure i could.
How old r ur children? Do u have anywhere u could go or is leaving not an option?x
If the answer is yes, do u feel u can do it whilst in a relationship with another addict. I'm not sure i could.
How old r ur children? Do u have anywhere u could go or is leaving not an option?x
Welcome.
I'm not sure I heard you say 'I want sobriety and am ready to do whatever it takes'.
It sounds like you're up against a lot, but if you're ready to make that statement and choose it with all you've got - then your life can and will change for the better.
I'm not sure I heard you say 'I want sobriety and am ready to do whatever it takes'.
It sounds like you're up against a lot, but if you're ready to make that statement and choose it with all you've got - then your life can and will change for the better.
I am so very, very sorry that you are living with verbal and emotional abuse. To be honest, I think getting out of your living situation would be the best thing you can do. You do not have to live in such a situation. I don't know if you're in the US but, if so:
The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support (US)
If not, let me know and I will quickly send you Domestic Abuse information for other countries.
The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support (US)
If not, let me know and I will quickly send you Domestic Abuse information for other countries.
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