In need of recovery support
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Buffalo, MN
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In need of recovery support
Hello! My name is Amber. I have problems with alcohol since I was a teenager. I am now 30. However, I was completely sober for nearly a year and a half until last week. I made some crappy choices, including going to court drunk. Luckily I did not get arrested. I am getting a divorce, but we have been separated for 5 years. There has been some other stressors lately as well, when it rains it pours, and I got drunk. Last night while I was withdrawing, unable to sleep, puking my guts out, I decided to get out of bed and pour the unopened and an opened bottle down the toilet. I have dealt with DT's in the past and I have diagnosed seizures so it scares me to quit once I've been drinking like that. Now I am feeling a lot of shame and guilt. I have stopped vomiting, and I don't feel physically terrible except my side and possibly kidneys are sore which is freaking me out and my tongue ooks all weird. I'm worried about my overall health, I was trying to be healthy, was working out and that was going well but I sprained my ankle black Friday and that has been part of the stress. I guess I feel like I have so much thaat I need to release about my alcoholism. I'm glad to be here!
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Glad you are here and so happy you can turn this around and make this relapse just a minor bump and continue on your sober path. No one can take that 1 1/2 year of sobriety away from you. Your body did a lot of healing during that time away from alcohol. Hopefully, this mini relapse showed you what you were not missing and any romanticizing of the drink is gone.
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Buffalo, MN
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Thank you all so much! I'm going to try a plant based diet and see if that helps with the kidney and liver pain. I have children and I can't ever let them see me like that again. I have some pretty ticked of family members, but with time they'll forgive. My mom is super pissed at my partner cause he brought me to the liquor store, he doesn't drink but he has totally enabled me the past. Part of me feels like he likes me like that, for what reason I have no idea. I haven't slept for a few nights so I pray tonight will be the night! I'm really looking forward to being here and helping others, while getting help.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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Hi Amber - welcome to SR. I've found this place, combined with AA, gave me a great support network.
Post here often, and maybe think about trying some face-to-face support. There's plenty in Buffalo...
Buffalo AA District 14 ? Minnesota
Post here often, and maybe think about trying some face-to-face support. There's plenty in Buffalo...
Buffalo AA District 14 ? Minnesota
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