What do you think?
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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What do you think?
Hello again. I'm still here. I am preparing myself to go to Alaska for the one year anniversay of my Sister Debbie's changing her residence to Heaven. Since she is my only sibling and this is my first close family passing, I don't even know how one does this or if can even be done. So there's that. My visits to Alaska are understandably very different. I stay with my parents which I had not done in 30 years. With that, I commit to not drink while I am there. Out of respect for my parents, I do this. My trips are usually 8 days long. The first 2 days I usually take one or two Xanax and after that, I don't need them. I don't like the Xanax feeling and I find that strange because I sure don't mind the drunk feeling. After the 8 days, my mind tells me there isn't a reason to pick up, yet I do. I find this is all so bizarre. What do you think? Thank you.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: New York, NY
Posts: 4,677
Hi Pam.
I was thinking about you and your sister last night. That you've been prolonging your grief and, in the process, avoiding getting on with your life.
I would love to see you get sober again, but there's nothing I can do about that.
I hope you find peace.
I was thinking about you and your sister last night. That you've been prolonging your grief and, in the process, avoiding getting on with your life.
I would love to see you get sober again, but there's nothing I can do about that.
I hope you find peace.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Posts: 6,224
What I think Pam is that you know what to do and you know what is right for you. I think you are asking us for a bit of reinforcement which is entirely understandable but is also you thinking, "can I garner some space to drink a bit more?"
It does not honour your own life or Debbie's to waffle around with will you or won't you drink.
The best thing you could do for you, your parents and your late sister is put down the booze in honour of her and you.
Can you do it?
I did. If I did so can you.
It does not honour your own life or Debbie's to waffle around with will you or won't you drink.
The best thing you could do for you, your parents and your late sister is put down the booze in honour of her and you.
Can you do it?
I did. If I did so can you.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,240
When I read the word Xanax or hear
about it, I reflect back 25yrs ago when
I entered rehab and recovery via a
family intervention and learned that
another patient was there for Xanax
addiction.
I was still pretty nieve about drugs
because my addiction was alcohol.
I didn't realize folks were abusing Xanax
or even being addicted to it. I didn't even
know what it was or what it was used for.
At 30 yrs old its was amazing to me
how turned off I was to pills or anything
having to do with them. I always turned
to liquor which was quicker to get and
drink.
I thought to myself after I asked the girl
what she was in rehab for and she told
me it was for Xanax. I then asked her what
it was and what it was used for. Duh, stupid
me and so nieve.
Anyway, since that time, ive learned
a little bit more about prescription meds
and how so many are having addiction
to them.
Today if I have to visit my physician which
Im extremely grateful for not having to go
but once a yr. for a check up, I make sure that
I do my research, ask questions and use my
recovery program as a guideline to help me
be firm and extremely honest with them
letting them know that I don't want anything
prescribed that will affect my sobriety and
that it is NOT NARCOTIC or HABIT FORMING.
There are too many drugs available in the
world today that can be administered easily
and can be extremely addicted to affecting
minds and bodies causing addiction and death
because of them.
To insure health and longevity in life
and sobriety is to avoid them.
Wishing you health, safe travels and
serenity Pam as you continue to move
forward in life.
Just a few thoughts running thru my mind.
about it, I reflect back 25yrs ago when
I entered rehab and recovery via a
family intervention and learned that
another patient was there for Xanax
addiction.
I was still pretty nieve about drugs
because my addiction was alcohol.
I didn't realize folks were abusing Xanax
or even being addicted to it. I didn't even
know what it was or what it was used for.
At 30 yrs old its was amazing to me
how turned off I was to pills or anything
having to do with them. I always turned
to liquor which was quicker to get and
drink.
I thought to myself after I asked the girl
what she was in rehab for and she told
me it was for Xanax. I then asked her what
it was and what it was used for. Duh, stupid
me and so nieve.
Anyway, since that time, ive learned
a little bit more about prescription meds
and how so many are having addiction
to them.
Today if I have to visit my physician which
Im extremely grateful for not having to go
but once a yr. for a check up, I make sure that
I do my research, ask questions and use my
recovery program as a guideline to help me
be firm and extremely honest with them
letting them know that I don't want anything
prescribed that will affect my sobriety and
that it is NOT NARCOTIC or HABIT FORMING.
There are too many drugs available in the
world today that can be administered easily
and can be extremely addicted to affecting
minds and bodies causing addiction and death
because of them.
To insure health and longevity in life
and sobriety is to avoid them.
Wishing you health, safe travels and
serenity Pam as you continue to move
forward in life.
Just a few thoughts running thru my mind.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: milwaukee wi
Posts: 3,574
Hi Pam.. could feel in the circle of life the tension and wobble of a circle. I have 3 sisters .. all younger and not well.. never want to know what you are feeling.. but my Mom and I have come to the grips that this will happen sooner for one of them ... then her or me.. Love my Dear Friend so many prayers and hopes that when you are home in the Far Far North the sky blows lights and color to show you how much your sister loved you ... ok I pass you a tissue for I have a huge box here.. love ardy with all of my heart...
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Hey raider
Good to hear from you. Maybe after the 8th day, just try one more day when you go home. Just try the one more day and see how it feels in a different environment. If it seems ok, then just add one more day after that. Be patient with yourself. Keep practicing. Dont give up.
Good to hear from you. Maybe after the 8th day, just try one more day when you go home. Just try the one more day and see how it feels in a different environment. If it seems ok, then just add one more day after that. Be patient with yourself. Keep practicing. Dont give up.
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