Hello again back after 3 years!
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Hello again back after 3 years!
Glad to be back. I'm heading into day 3. Went thru rehab in June and relapsed for 3 months it was very bad. My wife left me I now live in an apartment with roommate's because I was gonna fix myself and still be ok with an occasional drink. Well guess what, it doesn't work! It's none and won! or one and done! Im Done being a drunk. Im done sleeping in my car behind bars because i cant even see. Im done puking on myself and pissing my pants. Im done fighting with my wife just so i can keep on drinkin. I'm getting my life on track and my family back. Alcohol is the worst thing that has ever happened to humankind!
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When I was a kid, some bigger kids lived on the next street over.
I'd go over there and they'd be playing football in the yard. I wanted to play football, too.
But the bigger kids hit harder, and they were playing tackle football - no pads, no helmets.
"Tackling" wasn't just a friendly knock-down.... more times than not it was a full-out bodyslam followed by a pile-on. It was basically abuse. The bigger kids enjoyed knocking the crap out of me.
Stubborn, not to be intimidated or outdone, I would get up... pretend not to be in pain, take the beating and go right back into the game. Time and again. I'd go home feeling like I'd been hit by a truck.
Then another day, they'd be at it again and back I'd go. Through nosebleeds, near-concussions, bruises, scrapes and general misery.... until one day it finally occurred to me; maybe this wasn't "fun" at all. And maybe I really had nothing to prove to the bigger kids.
So off I went riding my bike to go fishing instead of getting myself beat to crap again.
We all have our own threshold. I'm glad you've found yours.
Welcome back.
I'd go over there and they'd be playing football in the yard. I wanted to play football, too.
But the bigger kids hit harder, and they were playing tackle football - no pads, no helmets.
"Tackling" wasn't just a friendly knock-down.... more times than not it was a full-out bodyslam followed by a pile-on. It was basically abuse. The bigger kids enjoyed knocking the crap out of me.
Stubborn, not to be intimidated or outdone, I would get up... pretend not to be in pain, take the beating and go right back into the game. Time and again. I'd go home feeling like I'd been hit by a truck.
Then another day, they'd be at it again and back I'd go. Through nosebleeds, near-concussions, bruises, scrapes and general misery.... until one day it finally occurred to me; maybe this wasn't "fun" at all. And maybe I really had nothing to prove to the bigger kids.
So off I went riding my bike to go fishing instead of getting myself beat to crap again.
We all have our own threshold. I'm glad you've found yours.
Welcome back.
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Originally Posted by RyanRyan 
Glad to be back. I'm heading into day 3. Went thru rehab in June and relapsed for 3 months it was very bad. My wife left me I now live in an apartment with roommate's because I was gonna fix myself and still be ok with an occasional drink. Well guess what, it doesn't work! It's none and won! or one and done! Im Done being a drunk. Im done sleeping in my car behind bars because i cant even see. Im done puking on myself and pissing my pants. Im done fighting with my wife just so i can keep on drinkin. I'm getting my life on track and my family back. Alcohol is the worst thing that has ever happened to humankind!
Hi.
Good you’re back, enough is enough because what you express many have felt it.
I suggest you print out you’re post and read it daily for a good “remember when.” We have a tendency to forget the painfull periods we went through to get to this point by easily thinking it wasn’t that bad I’ll just…………
This sober thing we look for requires honesty and acceptance that we cannot drink in safety. Like it or not.
BE WELL
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Glad your back Ryan,
I felt the same way after my last relapse. Time to pull out all the stops...review the info from your rehab stint, enroll in an IOP, write out a relapse prevention program an follow it. I did all this and more...I feel more free than I've ever felt before!! Best Wishes
I felt the same way after my last relapse. Time to pull out all the stops...review the info from your rehab stint, enroll in an IOP, write out a relapse prevention program an follow it. I did all this and more...I feel more free than I've ever felt before!! Best Wishes
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