Damn, 17 days and i want wine...
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Thanks soooo much FF!! I'm on day 21 today and had exactly the same urge tonight! Just wanted a day off! Reading your post and seeing the comments have helped me too. Guess I'm struggling with who the new me is? What am I about? etc Keep going!! We CAN do this! We have to.
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Join Date: Jun 2015
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Leem - it's here again tonight, I've eaten and I have chilled flavoured water but I can't deny the urge is there.
Wolfie - I don't feel amazing but thanks!
Had a really dull day at work today but I worked on my recovery journal, I've been keeping tabs on my units I was drinking the last 6 months and I'm logging them into a planner with daily yellow stickers where I went over 5 units, orange stickers where I went over 10 units and red danger stickers where I went over 15 units. Needless to say the last 3 months were all daily red stickers. Now I have 18 lovely green stickers for alcohol free sober days.
I have to stop trying to think "why do I want wine?" And then spend time trying to come up with a good enough reason.
I want wine like a crack addict wants crack, simple as. Just because it's available everywhere, all the time and people celebrate with it doesn't make it any less dangerous for me to meddle with.
I have to start thinking of wine as crack or heroin or something and not some amazing elixir that I'm denying myself when everyone else is having the time of their life on it.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
Right I'm going to do some sewing jobs that need doing, I'm not going to drink but I might have to keep ranting a while longer on here, hope no one minds!!!
Wolfie - I don't feel amazing but thanks!
Had a really dull day at work today but I worked on my recovery journal, I've been keeping tabs on my units I was drinking the last 6 months and I'm logging them into a planner with daily yellow stickers where I went over 5 units, orange stickers where I went over 10 units and red danger stickers where I went over 15 units. Needless to say the last 3 months were all daily red stickers. Now I have 18 lovely green stickers for alcohol free sober days.
I have to stop trying to think "why do I want wine?" And then spend time trying to come up with a good enough reason.
I want wine like a crack addict wants crack, simple as. Just because it's available everywhere, all the time and people celebrate with it doesn't make it any less dangerous for me to meddle with.
I have to start thinking of wine as crack or heroin or something and not some amazing elixir that I'm denying myself when everyone else is having the time of their life on it.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
Right I'm going to do some sewing jobs that need doing, I'm not going to drink but I might have to keep ranting a while longer on here, hope no one minds!!!
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Great job FF. You made it through the night without drinking. Way to go. That's part of the process of getting stronger. Your sober strength builds with time, and you succeeded in making yourself stronger last night.
You're doing great.
You're doing great.
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Thanks ccam, 6 pairs of school trousers unpicked to make longer for a growing 5 year old, 1 pair of football shorts mended for tmrws practice.
Now enjoying a skinny cow mint choc chip ice cream, mmmmm!
Amazing how productive u can be when sober, but I have to be careful not to do too much or I want to "reward" myself the old way...
Now enjoying a skinny cow mint choc chip ice cream, mmmmm!
Amazing how productive u can be when sober, but I have to be careful not to do too much or I want to "reward" myself the old way...
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