It's been a year...
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: Deep South, US
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It's been a year...
that I've been sober. I was here almost exactly a year ago and remained sober from alcohol (beer was my doc) for 9 weeks! It was Halloween night, kids getting dressed in their costumes, neighbors walking door to door with drinks in their hands enjoying a somewhat cool evening in a usually humid environment, when I had that first beer in 9 weeks.
Since then, I've spent almost a year trying to quit. It's been a really hard year thus far....kids with medical issues, changing schools, unsatisfied with jobs, finances, etc.. However, I am on here to get support b/c I just cannot take the effects of drinking anymore. See, I'm a binge drinker...I wait until Thursday and I binge drink (usually 7-8 beers) a night and all day on Sunday so that when I wake up on Monday morning, I feel so guilty and ashamed! Then that starts the cycle of alcohol withdrawls and agitation at the beginning of the week and drinking at the end of the week!!! My husband is a "functioning alcoholic" and has no desire to quit. I, however, want to quit and get healthy! Anyway, sorry for rambling but I just wanted to reintroduce myself and to say Hello!! Thanks!
Since then, I've spent almost a year trying to quit. It's been a really hard year thus far....kids with medical issues, changing schools, unsatisfied with jobs, finances, etc.. However, I am on here to get support b/c I just cannot take the effects of drinking anymore. See, I'm a binge drinker...I wait until Thursday and I binge drink (usually 7-8 beers) a night and all day on Sunday so that when I wake up on Monday morning, I feel so guilty and ashamed! Then that starts the cycle of alcohol withdrawls and agitation at the beginning of the week and drinking at the end of the week!!! My husband is a "functioning alcoholic" and has no desire to quit. I, however, want to quit and get healthy! Anyway, sorry for rambling but I just wanted to reintroduce myself and to say Hello!! Thanks!
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
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Hi and it’s good you’re back.
Many sober folks got to the point of realizing that help is needed and their recovery started then.
I and many others thought that stopping drinking for awhile would be our ticket to recovery and life would be much better and continued our old ways. No no, if we are alcoholic we have a dis-ease that is progressive and life long with a characteristic of wanting to make our life very miserable and or dead.
I and many who successfully recover one day at a time in a row had to get honest with ourself about our drinking and ACCEPT that we ca nnot drink alcohol in safety.
Then the recovery work begins by making many personal changes that caused this addictive life that included self destruction and emotional misery.
It takes help and time to do things many don’t want to do but are necessary to reach a point of great satisfaction and happiness.
In AA we call it Happy, Joyous and Freedom.
BE WELL
Many sober folks got to the point of realizing that help is needed and their recovery started then.
I and many others thought that stopping drinking for awhile would be our ticket to recovery and life would be much better and continued our old ways. No no, if we are alcoholic we have a dis-ease that is progressive and life long with a characteristic of wanting to make our life very miserable and or dead.
I and many who successfully recover one day at a time in a row had to get honest with ourself about our drinking and ACCEPT that we ca nnot drink alcohol in safety.
Then the recovery work begins by making many personal changes that caused this addictive life that included self destruction and emotional misery.
It takes help and time to do things many don’t want to do but are necessary to reach a point of great satisfaction and happiness.
In AA we call it Happy, Joyous and Freedom.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Gulf Coast, USA
Posts: 2,229
Welcome back Trying. It really helped me to have a plan laid out and spend as much time here on SR as I could. My wife also drinks so I know that can be a difficult aspect as well. The good thing is you are strong enough to make this change, for you. Trust me, you can do it and everyone else in your life will benefit from your strength!
Welcome back.
Welcome back.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Wisconsin, USA
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Welcome back trying! Sorry to hear that you've been unsuccessful in your attempts to quit, I hope we can help you make this be the time you do for good.
Were you using any formal recovery program or plan during this time? The thing is that that "hard" parts of life ( family problems, job problems, health problems, etc ) will always be there. We need to find healthy ways to face them and work through them rather than running away and hiding in a bottle. For many of us, that requires help from the outside...meetings, therapy, rehab, self help, etc. There's lots of info here about all of those different tools, hope we can help you find one that works for you.
Were you using any formal recovery program or plan during this time? The thing is that that "hard" parts of life ( family problems, job problems, health problems, etc ) will always be there. We need to find healthy ways to face them and work through them rather than running away and hiding in a bottle. For many of us, that requires help from the outside...meetings, therapy, rehab, self help, etc. There's lots of info here about all of those different tools, hope we can help you find one that works for you.
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