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cotton99
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This is my first post. This is day 4 without opiates for the first time in years. Today is really tough, super bad cravings. I really want to pick up the phone and make that call to get a few pills.....but instead, I'm going to the grocery store. Better to spend the cash I have on something useful, so I'm not as tempted to spend it on pills. I'm hoping the day gets better!
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Welcome to SR, cotton99, and congrats on your decision to live a better way of life in recovery. Post here once a minute if that's what it takes to keep those early cravings at bay. We're here for you!
cotton99
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Today has been the worst day so far, I physically feel like crap. Dull headache, aches and pains.....and oh yeah, craving!! Maybe because I had the day off and was home alone. Tried to stay busy, but my energy level is pretty low. Helping my daughter with her homework was excruciating, maybe because it's the first time sober?? Anyway, I look forward to many more homework sessions sober, w/o the physical withdrawal. Tomorrow will be day 5, I'm praying for some improvement.
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Good for you cotton! Treat it like the flu. It hurts bad and it goes away. No high expectations over the next few days other than taking care of yourself. Eat something. You're body needs nutrients to recover even though you may not feel like eating. Drink plenty of water. Calming tea can help a little. Use this time to see what those pills have done to you and pay attention to how badly your addicted.
You don't have to be addicted any more. You are doing awesome with 4 days under your belt. You put a lot of work into this already. You don't want to repeat those last 4 days again.
Keep going, you're going to be very happy you did!
You don't have to be addicted any more. You are doing awesome with 4 days under your belt. You put a lot of work into this already. You don't want to repeat those last 4 days again.
Keep going, you're going to be very happy you did!
cotton99
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Headache is gone now. I'm doing all the things I normally do, cook supper, get daughter ready for bed, etc. just without the buzz from pills. But what I really want to do is crawl in bed for a week, but my wonderful little daughter is the most important thing to me, and I want to make a better change for her. I will be SO glad when the physical part is over, even though I know the hardest part will just be beginning. In some aspects, I feel better already: I slowly feel a fog lifting from my brain, dark circles under my eyes that make me look like I haven't slept in days, are starting to go away. I guess I'm realizing now what my addiction has done to my body. All the more reason to stay sober!
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That's great news cotton. Once you start seeing signs of improvement, it really starts to get better quicker. I don't want to get ya overly excited or have false hopes, but that means you're over the hump. The backside is easier than the front side.
I had an oxy addiction and was chewing on pieces of morphine patches for a while. What ever I could get my hands on. Addiction is horrible for you and your daughter. It's a slippery slope with an express lane to hell. Good job getting off the path to destruction and on the path to freedom!
You are doing absolutely fantastic!
I had an oxy addiction and was chewing on pieces of morphine patches for a while. What ever I could get my hands on. Addiction is horrible for you and your daughter. It's a slippery slope with an express lane to hell. Good job getting off the path to destruction and on the path to freedom!
You are doing absolutely fantastic!
cotton99
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I am glad I made it through homework time also. 1st grade homework is a lot more involved than kindergarten homework. Or maybe it seemed longer because I'm going through withdrawals while still trying to do things I normally do. Anyway, I made it through and I'm actually excited about doing normal things while just being normal, not using. I know I have a long road ahead, and I am so glad I found SR! No one knows the extent of my problem, not even my husband, so if it weren't for the support I am so grateful to receive on SR, I don't think I would even attempt to begin this journey.
cotton99
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Originally Posted by CaseyW 
One day, one minute, one second at a time. Whatever it takes. It does get easier. I promise. Congrats on getting thru homework time.
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Same here cotton. A couple new I had an alcoholic problem and that it was bad, but still didn't know the real truth. It was really, really bad.
When I quit pills, nobody knew. I survived, but my addiction simply changed boats. I was always abusing something until I came here and posted day 1 on 4/20/15.
Wonderful people and lots of good advise. It's nice to share with other who understand.
Keep up the awesomeness!
When I quit pills, nobody knew. I survived, but my addiction simply changed boats. I was always abusing something until I came here and posted day 1 on 4/20/15.
Wonderful people and lots of good advise. It's nice to share with other who understand.
Keep up the awesomeness!
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