Drank again, lied again
Drank again, lied again
Hi SR. It's been a few weeks since I've posted. I got hammered Sunday. Just woke up and went back to my old auto-pilot and ended up getting pretty smashed. I'm on day three again after 45 days drink free.
My wife suspected it, questioned me: I denied and convinced her I just wasn't feeling well. Which was actually true because I didn't eat much all day and drank 12 beers in about 4 hours.
I haven't told her but I know I have to. I'm full of guilt and shame. The last month and a half have been so much better for me, my marriage, business, etc...before Sunday.
Any advice on the best way to tell her?
Thanks and lots of love, SR
My wife suspected it, questioned me: I denied and convinced her I just wasn't feeling well. Which was actually true because I didn't eat much all day and drank 12 beers in about 4 hours.
I haven't told her but I know I have to. I'm full of guilt and shame. The last month and a half have been so much better for me, my marriage, business, etc...before Sunday.
Any advice on the best way to tell her?
Thanks and lots of love, SR
Welcome back, 45 days is good stretch, perhaps you can build on whatever plan you had then and tweak/add to it?
Regarding how to tell your wife, just tell the truth. Honesty is very important to sobriety,
Regarding how to tell your wife, just tell the truth. Honesty is very important to sobriety,
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How long before you started did you know you were going to drink? Was this due to a window of opportunity? Curious to learn what triggered this. Sounds like what I'm very capable of doing. Welcome back and best wishes staying sober.
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In reviewing this site, I find it so curious that you all seem to forget that the first drink starts in the mind....I hear questions like what "triggered it" umm, I a alcoholic, ANYTHING can trigger it, great day, job promotion, bad day, getting fired, great day with kids, bad day with kids, argued with wife, had the best day ever with wife....by thinking that if you can control your "triggers" you are already losing,,,anything at anytime can be a trigger if your alcoholic...I identified my triggers years ago, and after 10 years of sobriety, drank again, if it was a as easy as identifying one's triggers, this would not be the hardest thing ever to do.
As you said , She suspected , but most likely let you off the hook . "If" she thinks at all like me . Instead of pressing the issue , arguing or making this worse . Could be she decided to wait for you to be upfront ?
Things happen , I would just say " I tried I fell , I didn't want to hurt you ..
Ditto on other posts , Nice length of time !! Stop & add to it .
Things happen , I would just say " I tried I fell , I didn't want to hurt you ..
Ditto on other posts , Nice length of time !! Stop & add to it .
Welcome back.
As others have said, it's best if you tell your wife the truth. Hopefully she has seen a big improvement in the last 45 days and will understand that you can get back to it.
As others have said, it's best if you tell your wife the truth. Hopefully she has seen a big improvement in the last 45 days and will understand that you can get back to it.
In reviewing this site, I find it so curious that you all seem to forget that the first drink starts in the mind....I hear questions like what "triggered it" umm, I a alcoholic, ANYTHING can trigger it, great day, job promotion, bad day, getting fired, great day with kids, bad day with kids, argued with wife, had the best day ever with wife....by thinking that if you can control your "triggers" you are already losing,,,anything at anytime can be a trigger if your alcoholic...I identified my triggers years ago, and after 10 years of sobriety, drank again, if it was a as easy as identifying one's triggers, this would not be the hardest thing ever to do.
The bottom line...there's possibly something here that needs a little work. Now would be a good time to reflect on that and come up with some plans. Defense is almost always more important than offense. Might just need to draw out a defensive play if there wasn't one before or draw up a new one if a play was designed but didn't do its job.
To the OP...
It's a BIG step to your sobriety to just lay it on the table. Let her know you are disappointed and mostly sorry you were not truthful at first. You've had time to reflect and you recognize that you're in this together and that lying is our addiction's go-to defense. Let her know you want to take that play away. What follows will follow. She may be mad, she may be sad. But she'll know you're serious about this and that's what really counts.
I appreciate greatly all the comments and advice. I told her about an hour after making the OP.
Obviously she was disappointed but appreciated my telling her.
I'm back to day 4 and while I am disappointed I failed I have new found confidence in staying sober.
Thanks again!
Obviously she was disappointed but appreciated my telling her.
I'm back to day 4 and while I am disappointed I failed I have new found confidence in staying sober.
Thanks again!
I'm sure you're relieved. Sometimes we need to prove to ourselves there's nothing in it for us anymore. It does nothing but cause misery & anxiety. You're back on track - that's what counts.
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